jenna stayed over at my house for the night. haahs. xP took up 3/4 of my bed, and me taking 1/4 of it. diaoo. hahas. played computer the whole morning. went out for lunch, saw fabian, jianhao, laijun, gary. hahas. and 2 idiotic fools came asking for our numbers, i dun care? hahas. so, they all go fabian's house go swimming. den later they come visit me, des made fabian specs got alot of scratches, now they are both angry at each other. ahyo. den played scoccer at home, i whacked des face with the ball, accidentally >.<>
now now now.. what should i be doing??? i know both couldnt be by my side, neither of them. i felt very very bad to both of them. i dunno what should i do. i'll give that a time-stop and carry on with my life. as what krystle said. hahas. xDD
omghhs, this few days im so in love with DARLING JERLIN!! hahas. she must be very very very very hornoured. hahas. byebye. cya xDD
why did i let myelf believe; miracles could happen?
Love,
Dulcy
Friday, September 22, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@7:43 PM
well well, what do we have here? DULCENA YEN xDD
hahas, anyway, today in school i was scolded off by 2 teachers. one is jenny neo ( i dunn care ) and the other by my chinese teacher. lols. hahas. xP school wasnt fun today. its so a bore.. nothing's fun, its like so so so so boring. that i wrote out the song lyrics. haha. was very very sleepy cause i slept at like 1+ am last night and was almost late for school today.
i went scolding him because he hated fabian. i questioned him, he questioned me, in the end, we became so angry at each other, den dunno what we talk talk talk until he dun hate fabian lerhs. hees. (= thats a good start of friendship! hahas. xP hope so bahhs. well well, hope they get along with each other. hahas
when i got home from school today, i was facing the computer screen the whole time. ahhas. playing maple, dunno what to do lorhs. anyhow walk here walk there. hahas. xP played with fabian. haha. so bored that we dun play maple, but talked on msn. hahas.
i love sunsets as i always do. den fabian go put his as sunrise. hahas. so our nick was like
" dulcenayen will you watch the SUNSET and gaze the STARS with me- " and "
* fâbÏãñ * Will you watch the SUNRISE and GAZE the stars with me- " hahas. xP cool bo? hahas. xP
anyway, i stop right here now, just wishing everyone jiayou for end of year exams!
sunsets.
Love,
Dulcy
Thursday, September 21, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@10:07 PM
and once again... HIE!
hahas. im abit crazy tonight, not knowing why also. hahas. today was eLearning day, as we know. hahas. it took me 30mins to get hook on to it, and started doing my work. hahas. xP mrs chan was really very helpful, she extended the deadline (time) to 11.59.59pm, hahas. (= and once again... Thank you Mrs Chan. hahas. xDD history was like, i screwed it up? lols. I thought it was SBQ (sourced-based question) but after i did all i can it was a SEQ (structured-essay questino). i didnt really care much after that, so i continued doing my home economics. hahas. xP i asked everyone who has done it for the answers and i got 15.5/20, all mistakes was due to the fast typing and missing some word out so it became like no word. hahas. sad..
after eLearning, i rushed down to cp to study with chinyee. when i got there, i stood outside, and i told myself " stay calm, there's nothing to be scared about. " so i went in and study. after awhile, i was so so so tired that i couldn't study, so i was like playing around with my pens and i wrote the lyrics (part of it) of the song "when there was me and you"
its funny when you find yourself looking from the outside
im standing here
but all i want is to be over there
why did i let myself believe
miracles could happen
cause now i have to pretend
that i dun really care
i thought you were my fairytale
my dreams when im not sleeping
a wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
that i confused feelings with the truth
when there was me and you
i swore i knew the melody
that i heard you singing
and when you smiled
you made me feel
that i could sing along
but den you went and change thewa words
now my heart is empty
im only left with used-to-be
and once a upon a song .......
hahas, thas nice (= hahas. so after that, des called me to go home cause my brother came home already. so i went home. hahas. see! how guai. xP hahas. so it ended up with 1 comp left when i was home, and it was my sister's comp, no one could use it, cause only i know the password. hahas. xP
so it ended up here, when im on my bed, infront of the laptop, blogging. hahas. nights nights. (=
a fact will always remain as a fact
watching the sunset? nopes, darkness. the breeze? nopes, the coldness. )= im sad.
Love,
Dulcy
♥
Last footprint@2:17 PM
hie! hahas. at home the whole day on the computer doing ELEARNING. how retarded. its very difficult. until now, my english passage have not been done yet, its so difficult. when my brother gets home, i'll ask him to help me!! HAHAS
anyway, im going out now with chinyee to go study. ahahs. and my both sisters going out with classmates to go eat lunch together, cause they treat my sisters. ahas.
im going to type a very very short one here, cause im a rush to go out. ahhas. still got to pack my bag for studying. so.. tata~ hhas
loveDUL
Love,
Dulcy
Tuesday, September 19, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@7:06 PM
hie. hahas. back from netball today. quite early, ended at 5.30pm, being held back by that bytchy mrs "lie" whatever it is, i told her " im rushing for tuition (lie), if you got anything tell me, tell me tomorrow, i got no time for you. " and i walked off. hahas. xP
oh well, i didnt even know you1 would smoke! omghs, i thought only him2, wow. ok, but not very surprized, i knew that it will influcence you1. hahas. i knew it! when i follow you1 i knew you1 would ask that question which i confirm cant answer you1 in ur face, i cant. i dunno why i cant say, so i decided to tell you in a point of a letter. hahas. xP anyway, its abit weird larhs. i dunno.
woOoO!!! haha. yongxuan lend us the high school musical the cd to hear the songs. and im singing now!! hahas. so funn!!! wheEeEE!!! thanks yongxuan!! hahas. so happy. all my nice songs are in there, hahas. so crazy about the songs, its so lovely. xDD hahas.
i'll stop here den, hahas. and sing my SONG!! lols. ps, glass wont break! xP
ahh!! my house is so empty, all the furnitures are in the car porch
its just to renovate my house. hahas xD
Love,
Dulcy
Sunday, September 17, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@9:05 PM
hie! hahas. yesterday night actually got post one. but dunno what happen, nothing's get posted. hahas. pissed off so didnt want to type all over again.
hahas. today was like most of the time in the library, or must i say, the whole day in the library studying. (= guai bo? lols. hahas, my mum was there too. xP not studying but reading newspaper. hahas. wasnt really in a good mood today worhs. hahas. see everyone around me so sweet, and me, just like a third party? anyway, yah. i dun care liaos.
krystle, if u dun remember its good lerhs (= remembering the bad days isnt good, look up to future. (= hahas. ohya, i didnt say u called me slut, im referring to someone else, not any of the 7 of you (= someone, who i hated since that day. anyway, past is past. future is future. (=
maybe you could say, its me who is the third party, you both now can live happly ever after infront of me. (= all the best larhs. i know you dunn even love me from the start, and its too late that i know now. but now you all dunn need to sneaky behind my back lerhs. (=
smiles-
i took the first move! hahas. xP whoops.
wake up into reality dulcena yen,
you are not a princess. get straight.
Love,
Dulcy
Saturday, September 16, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@1:35 AM
hie, back to blogging for the last time for the night. lols. my maple sin lvl 66 lerhs, hahas, xP hahas. now talking on msn.
make me remind me of something, i got so pissed off. but anyway, i dun care larhs. he wan like that den like that, but den i feel like slapping him lorhs. dulcena CONTROL.. hahas. xP i will must.
today after school was chinese oral, i think i screw it up. ohya, anyway, when going home, me, des, mc, hb, jh and lj was like playing with puddles of water on the ground after it rains. hahas. its very fun, first time i had so much fun after so long of shyts in my life. hahas xP very happy.
english period i did a composition on "The Best Gift". to me, what is the best gift? most people will say love, but i think love isnt everything, it hurts me like shyt. to me the best gift to me is the gift of life, at least now i know what my life means how much to every single one in this world, anyway, i hope i score well in my composition!! hahas. its all FACTS.
nights- misshingMYSELF always xD
Love,
Dulcy
Friday, September 15, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@11:52 PM
hie. hahas. so late still not asleep, im mapling! lols. after my priest lvl 1OO and my sin becomes hermit, im not going to play lerhs. hahas. until after the exams. (=
well today in school wasnt very good for me. its like a bad hair day for me, krystle insulted me a dog. whatever larhs, insult for all i care. call me slut, that me anyway. whatever. jolene so poor thing, kana molested=\ haiish, take care worhs jolene. (= hees. sihui was like boasting that she's knows everything, and when we asked her, she gave us that action that made me angry, but ok lerhs, well got to explain and talk things out. (= bifang scolded me off becuase i told them " u all not cold mehhs? u all wan go back class marhs?" den she shouted at me " you go larhs!" i super angry, i just walked off. krystle told me not to be angry at bifang anymore, but the attitude she gave me today was like, SHYT. she says i patch with bk, but i didnt EVEN DID that. she told me "why you so gloomy today? you quarrel wit bk arhs?" i got so angry that i shouted back at her " i didnt even patch with him lorh!"
arghh. today just isnt my day for me. a freaking day for me. handphone busted, some sluty b12tch keep telling ppl that im crazy, can bust my bill to $200. ehs, hello arse, its my bussiness, not yours, so mind you, keep ur fcuking mouth shut, or i will seriously slap u across your bytchy face.
not going to say anymore, PISSED-
Love,
Dulcy
Wednesday, September 13, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@5:21 PM
hie. hahas. im playing my teBah again. xP hahas. today in school was like SO EXCITING. hahas. xP lets check it out
firstly, abul and kwok meang fight because kwok meang kick abul chair until he fall, den abul bu shuang him, punch him twice on the face. kwok meang face was very very red. so he sat down, den after 5 secs he said, i bu shuang, he go find abul fight. lols. den jiahan help to stop them. so thats the end. (= hope they will be friends! xDD
secondly, during lit class, rubi kana scolded because of "her big fat mouth" *taken from krisnan.* hahas, den krisnan said that turban and rubi was so fated together, can consider to marry each other next time.*taken from krisnan* hahas, and so the malay girls drew up at CARTOON photo of both of them. den rubi got so angry that she wanted to see the paper, but syfiqah didnt want to give. so rubi slapped my poor syfiqah. and nawal *the hero!* scolded rubi off, den they started fighting. even the sec 3 asked me about it. hahas. oh well, nawal injury was only a button being pull out of her shirt, nothing much. but rubi was like, scratch on her hand, and on her face too. woo... hahas. xP anyway, dunwan to say much. dun really like rubi, she's super racist. if i was nawal, i will slapp and pull her hair even harder. (=
anyway, thats all. my teBah's waiting for me xP wahhaas.
Love,
Dulcy
Monday, September 11, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@9:58 PM
hie. oh well. today wasnt a very good day for me. haiish.. failed geog again. arse, i scolded ms leong off when she told me i could do better. wahahas. i told her to fcuk off xP. hahas. anyway, i'll make sure i wont take geography next year, cause i hate it to the core. my english was like 1 more freaking mark to A2!! arghh.. but ok larhs, first time the whole class didnt fail any subjects. hahas. xP
well well.. now playing my teBah in cass, hahas. xP nothing to do. ahbah chased up with me and over took me, she's lvl 22, so i must buck up. lols. hahas. xP anyway.. i've got to do maths homework later, so cant lvl my teBah xP hahas. xP
daffy cutted her hair today, wasnt that bad larhs. but $10 for that, not worth it xP hahas. i hate annie, i wont forgive him. i didnt even ask him to say PLEASE, he said i ask him to begged me for a sweet, but i did give him, without him talking AT ALL. and he said i was selfish, fine! i dunwan any of your things no longer! take it back, herhs!
haiish, my mother ask me to transfer school again. the ASC international, its a private school. but i dunwan to go in there. i strive hard just trying to get into the school netball's team, and u asked me to transfer? NO WAY. i wont. but den.. ahya, i dunno what to do liaoos. i dun mind leaving the teachers behind, cause i dun care about them, actually, i wish they were all GONE. xDD hahas. i dunno what to do again. sad...
oh well, time for me to see my tebah xP hahas. okie tata. nights~ cya.
ilovemyself for who i am
Love,
Dulcy
Thursday, September 07, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@4:56 AM
hie. hahas. its again, so late. wahahas. xP been mapling man. xP chionging to 100 is not easy. xD anyway, tml's my brother birthday, and i havent gotten anything thing for him. but you know what? i'm not going to buy for him anything because he owes me my birthday treat. wahahas. xP anyway, yups. no no no xDD
today was kinda of tiring, cause i slept so late last night too. woke up so early. went to school, waited for that irritating crazy bee to arrive at school, its like 9 people waiting for her at the bus stop and u know what? she's is just outside the school gate. stupid bee!! wahhaas. got back maths paper today, i scored the highest in class again. wahahas. 43/50, abit sux larhs, but den, (= still got a1, Praise The Lord! wahahas. xP
after maths, me, des, wendy and rebecca go cp eat lunch at mac~ wahahas. eat eat and talk talk, den saw stella they all, i ask them help me buy 2 bunches of bananas for the netball, it cost like $4? wahahas. xP den while they go buy, we continued eating, until chinyee called my hp and asked me where am i, and i saw the time 1pm, ohmyshyt. we all rush to the meeting point with stella they all, wow. alot of people waiting for us. wahhaas. xDD so when we got to kallang netball, not many schools were there. i played the first game! xDD hahas, and we won! xDD the rest i dunno, didnt bother to ask or know the score. anyway, daffy played till she got blister and her blister was bleeding. poor her. and she got to walk home so slowly..
after the netball, nina, zhuzhu, yijie and we 3 sisters go heartland and eat dinner, im super hungry. so when i got home it was like... 8+? wahahas. xP nina was like so crazy, keep laughing, cracking jokes. hahas. keep calling us lil kids.. hahas. first time i saw yijie so hyper xDD wahahas. she was never like that. so we all went home after that
while walking home, we passed by 2 guys on the way. and den when we turned back, they were like following us, so i told des to call zhuzhu, in case anything happens, zhuzhu knows. hahas. xP kinda of freaking, its like so dark and 2 people[guys] following us. ARGH!! so freaked out. wahhaas. xPp
so late liaos. i better go sleep. i still got maths lessons tml (= cya. nights nights. miss all of you
do not question me, i told you before.
Love,
Dulcy
Wednesday, September 06, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@4:29 AM
THE PEOM
i hole it true,
whatever befall;
i feel it when i sorrow most;
this better to have loved and lost
than never to have loved at all
beautiful rain
falling so softly
such a delicate thing
the harvests need you
and most of the flowers
but i need too
because you remind
of coolness of quiet
of tenderest word
come down rain, fall
not too harshly
but give
your strange sense of peace to me
if my live could be this way, i would be very very happy.
Love,
Dulcy
♥
Last footprint@4:08 AM
hie. xDD 4am in the morning. hees. just played finish maple. (= hahas. playing with laijun, we were like comparing whose song nicer. xDD so sad, but i won!! wahahas. xP hahas. now talking to him on the phone, super irritating, keep asking me to tel him what i type. lols. whatever, if he want see, ownself come my blog see worhs! wahhaas. xP
anyway, ya. feelings will fade soon, or i must say, MUST fade. i cant live in misery anymore. i must face up to reality, must face up to all obstacles and must face up to the outcome of everything. anyway, i dun really care what ppl think of me any more, slut, bytch whatever. i dun care, i just want to gain everyone trust again, everyone hates me. =\ and thats BAD. wth. anyway, everyone, DUN HATE ME, i'll change (= *promise*
anyway, im so pahhsehh at night just now. i dreamt of him2 den i wan to sms jerlin that i dreamt of him2, in the end, i dunno why, i go sms him2. and den he2 reply, ehs? im _ _ _ _ , u sms wrong person lehs. den i was uh o. shyt, im doomed, he2 knows i dreamt of him2. den i reply whoops, sry pahhsehh, send wrong person. den he2 reply, what u dream of me? kissing arhs? wth.. den i say , NO, just hearing you say that why i dao u, but in reality, u wanted to dao me. argh. whatever, i lost everything i had, (= hope can gain back this guy2 as a trust again. den he2 reply, oh, ya, i also dunwan get into any troubles lerhs. haiish, den i was " yeah, i also dunwan u get into any troubles lerhs" den he2 say, take care darling (=. it will be the last time i sms/talk to you. den i reply, okie, take care too. THE END. sianns. i really hope i can gain back everyone's trust )= im like a lonely slut/bytch here to everyone, i must as well dissapear.
well. nights. byebye(= laijun is chasing me to bed. stupid mr goons. wahhaas. xP okie okie. i gtg. cya (= i got maths remedial at 8.30!! to 12pm den netball matchs, need to buy 2 bunches of bananas, wahahas. xDD cya (=
i can MUST do it (=
Love,
Dulcy
Monday, September 04, 2006 ♥
Last footprint@3:24 AM
reading my past
reading from may to now. i was so so happy den soon as each day pass.
each day was becoming a horror to me
didnt really had a good teenage
i regretted not giving in my best for everyting
i have done.
regretted everything
but regrets doesnt help in any way
i'll just got the pick up the broken pieces of glass
that i have thrown onto the floor
using my own innocent hands
getting cutts and scars everywhere
hurtful, confused, depressed
why must all this be happening on me?
i wish someone could bring me a bottle of beer/wine
i wan to be drunk, drunk for life!
i dunwan to think about anything
but everything just pops into my mind
crushing my heart into smaller and smaller pieces
till one day, it turns into dust
and that day, my lifes ends here with misery.
and i wave everyone
good bye~
Love,
Dulcy
♥
Last footprint@2:31 AM
SEPTEMBER HOLS (=
hie. its 2.30am in the morning. first time im blogging in the september (= wahahas. xDD anyway. hope this month really dun screw my life up again. (=
anyway.. this few days didnt blog was because mapling all the way. wahahas. abit maple addict, but tml is going to studying in the library (= hahas. study study study. its abit less den 1 month to end of year STREAMING and im not even revising yet. i better start doing something (= which is tml, my big day, first day of revising. wahhaas. xDD anyway, to all sec 2 people, Jiayou! all the best for end of year! your future is in your hand. (=
anyway, maple was kinda of fun today. wahhaas. my maple stead [i dun love him] mega me saying that he will love me only. lols. when he didnt even meet me yet? uh huh.. i wonder if he miss me, will he think of the picture of luckkiie in maple? ahahas. xDD but he's sweet. he got N lvl tml, and i wish everyone who are taking exams tml, all the best (=
anyway, while mapling, he called me. talking about what to change and all that. den suddenly go back to the afternoon of culture night. when i was sitting in between 2 guys[my classmate] which my seat was so SUAY to be beside both of them. i couldnt choose my seat right? in the end i also sit beside my sister. anyway, he claims that i played with them, but somehow i dun recall playing with them, i only recall giving my number to wilfred and songwen which i thought they should have. and den i move my seat to beside daffy. I DIDNT EVEN PLAY WITH THEM? whatever it is. its my life, what i want to do its NOYB. whatever larhs, you want to think the same way as your mother, i dun care.
thinking back, cutting myself for him is abit silly ya? people keep telling me its not worth. but, what is done is done. (= anyway, not going to cut no longer, just going to drink all the way, forget everything and have a good night sleep. (=
hahas, im now talking to my didi jackboon and my friend SAMANTHA. wahhaas. didi got a good point. (= take the photo and play bulleye, if u hit the bulleye real hard, im happy xD lols. thats not going to work for long anyway (= and sam now likes a guy and the guy like her. lols? she's weird, at first say she les, den now say she like a guy. is a les suppose to like a guy? i thought is a girl? lols. anyway, overall, she's still weird larhs. no one can change her xDD
hey! im talking to hendrick xDd hahas. mr cute xDD whahaas. xPP talking to him about mr staircase boy, wahhaas. only him and my sercert. lols
anyway. its was quite a long post (= hahas. so cya. good nights. (= hope i pass all my common test, its like so long and they havent mark finish. (= nights. sweet dreams. sleep tight.
lovehateDUL
Love,
Dulcy
