Take time to realize

Friday, 280308

Well, wasn't a really good day. Don't want to talk much. School was okay. Chinese wasn't anything, just some funny stupid random talks with darling. Then recess went to library to do Literature. I always find myself odd when Nico, Joseph and Nick are beside darling, I'll just walk off. = Went for English, he was UBER LATE. Like 15mins late? Goodness. Oh well, lunch was doing literature again. Mummy came and give us lunch -- fried rice. It reminds me of being a young primary school girl again, when during lunch, we'll go out of school, and wait for mummy under the void deck to get lunch. How I miss those days. Went late for Literature because was rushing my essay, when I finished, went into class late giving the excuse that my mummy is in school. Literature was boring. Oh well.

After school, got prepared for match. Went to east spring. I played GD. I was happy. We were losing 5-9 in the first quater. Some fighting to happen. Well, umpires sucks. 2nd quater, I was playing C. And the team played a lousy game, so we widen the score to 7-20. Oh well, from there, I was just sians, putting my best. Got quite pissed off at Emily whenever she didn't keep close to her player. I shouted at her though, but later was alright. In the end we lost horribly 16-32. UH. Sucks.

Went back to school. Had 2 dam big tomato blisters. Walking on my old injury again -- ankle. UGHH. Went for training at CCAB, reached on time. I went alone, while my sister went home. Well, my blister hurt me so badly. We did warm up 4 rounds around the track with me limping, it was very straneous on my right leg, which later hurt my back to the max. Omg, I should have listen to jean jie jie and stop =[ Ball passing, then did like half court (training), I was playing GD though. Didn't have any communication with dino, mel and ashley jiejies. Oh well = Maybe because I don't play GD and didn't have the MQ. Oh well.

Later went for "dinner" at prata stall. 12 of us -- Me, Shalene, Jean, Mel, Xunhui, Dale, Sharon, Huijuan, Ashley, Charmaine and her friend and justina. Saw Yaanmeng with his church friends there. So qiao right? see the ugly. Hahaha =DD They made fun of me luh! RAHHS. Idiot. I hate being the smallest. Haha. Xunhui fetched me home (Thank you!) then Sharon Ahyi made sure I reached home safely, I smsed her. Went to bed.

Saturday, 290308

Woke up at 3am because of my two painful blisters. I dragged myself to the toilet and tried to cool it down with water, but it didn't work. I swear, I was pespiring. Woke my maid up, she helped me back to bed, and I went back to sleep. Didn't go for breakfast, woke up, bathe, slack around. Waited till they reached home. Slack slack slack in my mummy's room. And we decided to go for massage, my back was hurting like crap.

Went to eat lunch -- char guo tiao! YUMMY. Then went for massage, the guy told me that my back has a problem, need to go see a doctor. Oh well. = NOPE NOPE! Not going! ugh, that feeling whenever someone touches me. Later went to buy food and fruits. then went back home. Slack slack slack, paint my fingernails. I just screwed it up though. HECK. Hahaha. =P I can hardly walk properly now. =[

Darling is coming over to give me my laptop later. =DD Wished I could see him now. Oh well. I'm kinda of in love with the song, realized, now. Hahs =DD TATAS.






I'm just running away.

I don't know how to face you tomorrow. You didn't bother to call me after your tuition, you talked to daffy and not clarify with me. I'm utter upset. Well, looks like I'll have to pretend nothing has happened. Maybe it's just me and my da-xiao-jie-pi-qi, fine. Maybe it's just me and my thinking that you're always not there for me when I'm down. Really, that day when I had flu like shit, you didn't do anything, but went to play tennis. RAHH. I vented my anger on shooting netball -- luckily. I don't wish to be angry at you always, let me do something about it. Maybe everything started with a -- me.




Like we're distanting.

HELLO! I didn't blog for the entire week! AHHH. Why? I'm soooo busy! So stressed up! I just want to scream. Studies sucks, netball sucks, love sucks. What else is there? =[

Studies - Been slacking so much for the weekend, and when school comes, everything is so packed, timing ticking on me. Just so stressed up. Very disappointed in the Economics presentation. VERY VERY. 18/25. This sucks. Biology test 17.5/26. Sucks even more. Chemistry C4 - 5. FUCK, just needed my variables to get a 6, then I'll get a 6. Fuck gunawan for being so boasty.

Netball - tuesday match lost to YISHUN east by little bit. I think it was like 26 - 31? I played so badly, so lost on court. Keep clashing. Passes not there. RAHHS. =[ Wednesday junior's match, umpired like shit. Junior lost by 1. 10 - 11. Sad case. Tomorrow got match -- East Spring Sec. Oh well, later got training at School of PE. Oh well. Hope everything goes well..

Love - I don't know. I feel that we've distant. Like what Yaan Meng said, for the first month, is like we're suppose to be MADLY in love, but I don't feel anything. = What do I do. I just want some attention from you, I don't get it. I'm upset. You're busy when I'm free, I'm busy when you're free. When is this going to end. =[ 1 week more till 1st month. Something is not right.






You're my rose

Woke up at 9am? Forgotten the timing, went for breakfast in 2 (fully occupied) cars. Hahaha. =P Went to Hougang for breakfast. Shared lamb chop with my sisters. Went home, just slack the entire day. Doing nothing =| I feel useless.

Hahaha. Slept at like 5+, then woken up by my sister to go eat dinner. Went for dinner at the coffee shop outside our house. I didn't eat much? Eat a little from here, eat a little form there. Oh well. Went home, ate cockles. Then watch ManU vs Liverpool. Manu 3 - 0 Liverpool

Was thinking of darling the entire day. =[ He's so busy. Sighs. What to do. I'm feeling distant. Oh well, Good nights. Going to wake up at 2am later. I really wished my darling could accompany me, but.. Can't say anything, all the best in your match tomorrow baby. I love you.











My secret hide out

Omgs. I almost teared. I was shocked. Although it was mere a dream, it felt so real. It's like, I went into Chemistry class, I saw you sitting at Emily's place. And when I sat at my own place, Emily came and asked me to move to the back of the class. & you just sat there and said "Yeah, go behind." I was so hurt. I was right at the back of the class, and I saw both of you so close. My heart just broke. One is my boyfriend, and the other was my best friend.

And I woke up, I almost cried. I went finding for my hand phone and messaged you. And when my maid came in and tried to wake me up, I refused. And she said "Your boyfriend have another girlfriend already luh. Faster wake up. He's cheating on you." I was just stunned. I didn't know what to do.

Is this going to be real? I don't know. I am dumbfounded.




When you hold on to one's hand, will it be forever?

Woken up by xiaojuan's call, she asked me for Shalene's no. Goodness. So tired. Then tried to go back to sleep, but after awhile, Alisa called me to ask about the Econs presentation. Goodness. Then my maid woke me up. At 10.30am. Hahaha. We're all so tired.

Went for branch at hougang coffee center. Wasn't too please about what happen. Not going to elaborate about it. Went to fix Mummy's specs. Then went to collect Mum's car. Reached home, slack the ENTIRE DAY. Really, the entire day. I wanted to do work, but there's this stupid aura in my house -- don't study aura. Hahaha. I don't know why though. Oh well.

Parents and Dajie went out for dinner. Brother and friends went out for dinner. While 3 of us, stuck at home, so hungry. Went to bathe, wait for my brother to buy dinner for us -- KFC. Then came home, we ate. Watched television at the same time.

Now talking to darling. (: He's going to sleep early. (: Oh well. Nothing much to say. Nights.






Friday, 220308

Woke up at 9.30? Didn't go for breakfast because I need to do my tuition homework as tuition is at 11am. Goodness, so early. Received a sms from teacher that she will push back the tuition to 12mid. Omghs. HENNGGG. I finally did finish my work. Hahaha. =DD Sms-ed Brina, he just finished tuition. And at 12.15pm, teacher came! Tuition-ed till 2pm. Teacher was dam funny! They insulted my school Literature teacher because of her crap analysis which was taken from the internet. They thought my teacher was Indian, and they talked in that Indian tone! Laugh like shit lahh! Hahaha =P

After tuition, just slack slack slack. Webcam with Brina QUEKKK. Hahaha. Was talking to him from like 3+ to 6+. We finally decided to go for Juliette & Steph's party. Oh well, went to choose dress. I was wanting to wear my new dress that I bought from this fashion. =DD I showed darling, and he said it was pretty. But I think when I wear it I'm not Dulcena. Hahaha! =P Oh well. (: I like it though. Hahaha. DECIDED! Later went to eat dinner at home, like LITTLEE bit. Then went to bathe and change. Yaan Meng came over as we were fetching him there. My mummy fetched me BTW. Hahas =DD Dajie got her wedding pictures! Hahas =DD So wonderful.

Left the house at 8pm. Reached there at 8.30pm. Just nice. We quite lost our way there. Hahaha =P Party was uhhh.. Goodness. Smokers, Alcohol, chips. UGH. Not my type. I did not touch alcohol and cigarettes at all! Yucks. It was quite a disaster, Juliette went crying because all her friends went home as we couldn't blend into steph's friends. Oh well, she should know that (Everyone said that) Kristine was pretty! Hahas. TALL AND SEXY. Goodness. *jealous* Hahas. =P Left the place at 11pm with 2 drunken guys -- Masashi and Ken. Goodness. They made me feel like slapping them.

I was so hungry, so we(8 of us) cabbed down to Kovan(my place) to eat dinner. Went to eat at coffee shop. Reached home at 1.30am? Goodness, I was so tired. Came home seeing my parents they all playing mahjong. Haha. Called dear, he was so worried for me. I'm so sorry. Wanted to tell you so much things, but don't want you to worry. *sighs* Oh well, that's all for today. NIGHTS.











I love you just that way.

Woke up at 6.20am? I was so tiredd! By the way, I slept at 2am last night? Goodness, my hair can't just dry up. And when I woke up, it was like puffed up. Bad-hair-day. Rahhs. Slept in the car, was really tired. Went for breakfast, shared carrot cake with Desi. We just love it so much. Hahaha.

Reached school at 7.50am? Literally just stoned in the hall, at some random sit which it's not even my class, I don't know where I was sitting. Later darling came to school and accompanied me stoning. Hahaha =P Chapel today, was so tired. I just slept there. And when I woke up, I saw Sophia and darling sleeping too. Shucks, I felt bad when I saw him sleeping. Because I was talking to him till 2am! Whoopsy. =X

After assembly, find Mr Teh. Then talked about the upcoming tournament matches. Oh well, I think I need to umpire for C div. Oh well. It's alright. Went for tutorial, did the target setting thing. Gina isn't very friendly today. Went for Emath class, we had a 15mins loci test. Thank goodness. I hated loci to the core, it's such a boring topic. Waited for darling outside his class till his class was over. Went to the canteen, I ate my "lunch" Hahaha. Was so hungry!! Later went for Biology.

Studied new topic -- Drugs. It wasn't that bad luh. Quite boring, later went for English. David Cobb was crazy again. Hahaha. He went kuku. Stupid Daniel made me laugh like shit when we were talking about him and Brina. Hahaha! Gays! Went for lunch, Brina fed me his lunch. Hahaha, not all, but a few pieces of chicken meat. Later went to print his English coursework. Really, oh my goodness, his English is so superbly well! I got touched by his essay! Like the first time no, second time I was moved by someone's essay. Then first one was Duncan's, that freaked me to the core, dam scary, but I doubt it's his own original essay. But really! Brina's essay was like wow..

Went for Economics, studied again. Like oh my goodness. Later went for Chemistry, sat beside Daffy. Did some experiments though, like examples. Some were quite cool. And of course, homework again! Haha. Went for IGCSE Chinese! Me and Brina was superb high. Hahaha. I don't think it's him, I think it's just me. OH WELL. After lesson (5.30pm, *yawns*), then my brother took a taxi and came down to fetch us home. And between after lesson to my brother coming to fetch us, I was playing with my darling<3 He's just too sweet. =) I don't know why I always fall in love with cute guys, but in the end, every ending isn't what I expected to be, don't fail on me this time!

Went home, cab fair was $20.80. My money, ouch. Dinner was only the 4 of us, watched television till 9pm, because I was watching princess dairy. Hahaha. =P Now I'm here, waiting for Brina's tuition to end at 10pm (I think I'll be dead tired by then). I trimmed my fingernails, now they are short an has no shape! My maid anyhow trim, I'm upset. Oh well.

Baby, tell me what to do, what you want me to do. At times, I need to give way, don't do this to me. By trying to protect me by giving way to me, doesn't mean I won't get hurt. I'll try not to be so violent and be more lady-life. *pftt* Well, I hope baby is doing well without me interfering into his stopbeating. Oh well. And I'm contented with no one interfering into my blog.






Raindrops falling onto my checks.

Woke up at 6am, bathed. Called darling at 6.30am, but he went back to sleep. Went to eat breakfast, reached school at 7.55am? Quite early huh. Oh well. Emily was dammm early, hahas. Chatted with Nico and Emily. "FATTY's MINE" Hahaha! That was hilarious! Later called darling, and he was downstairs, so I went to the canteen to find him. He was finally filing his stuffs. Hahaha =P Oh well.

Assembly, me and Emily was sleeping. I was too tired. Went for tutoral, Emily got a dressing down again. *pftt* Gina is so crazy. Went for Admath, studied. Yes, I studied. Lesson over, someone covered my eyes, it's none other than darling Brina! =DD Went for recess. Now there's a new table -- Rugby table, which was 2 tables away from my table. He just kept looking over, giving that facial expression of urging to go over. *sighs* Because of me, he's stuck with people he don't know. Oh well. Yes, my selfishness again. Double break, was quite bored. Doing nothing, slack slack slack, eat lunch?

Later went for Literature. Emily didn't come, she said she's in sick bay because she had a fever of 37.7'C like what the hecks. If she doesn't want to attend, say so. What rubbish. Oh well, sat beside Sarah. Literally stoned. I wished khoo/bee could be beside me. =| Lesson's over. I saw darling's face peeping into the class by the door. Hahaha. Went for lunch, that desperation in his eye again. Just made me feel more guilty. What I have done.. Lunch was doing economics homework and stressing up over Chinese IGCSE oral later. Well, there comes my attitude again. Oh well..

Went into class. Studied, nothing can get into my head. I'm so frustrated... After school, it was raining, so havoc. Trying to find everyone to assemble in the gym, and while the clock is ticking for me to go for Chinese IGCSE oral. Goodness, I went into class at 3.40pm when I was suppose to be there at 3.15pm. Went in the class (scared) leaving darling behind and he mumbled to me "I love you, baby" Awws. So touched. I love you too.

Oral was quite retarded. I was the first person to be tested!! My tester was Ang Lay Tee. So I think I did fairly well? I hope so. It wasn't as difficult as I thought. =) I can speak, but can't write. Hahaha. =P Well, of course, I tried slanging into Chinese. Hahaha =P Oh well, I think everything went alright. Called darling after that, he's at holland, coming back just because of me (guiltiness). Saw Yaan Meng, roam around with him until darling came back. Sat around in the canteen, whining that I'm hungry. Hahaha. He bought me lian long bao, thanks baby! Well, could see that he wanted to go rugby so badly, it's just because of me, he's not going. Rahhs. Too guilty too guilty. =\

Left the school at 6pm after talking to Duncan, Chris Kim, Jon. Haha. They're quite funny! =) Slept in the bus 106, then took 16 to kallang. Reached there just nicely at 7.25pm went to do warm up, ball works. Court game. I love it, I'm playing my favourite position again, WD. (: I need to grow taller! I missed so many balls just by a cm!! So angry, if not I can intercept it. Intercepted a lot of balls, quite happy. Oh yes, I had toe cramp. Hahaha! Freaking funny.

After training, went home with Si Ying. Now I'm here, waiting for baby to talk finish to Brian, then I talk to him =) Or maybe not, let him rest. I love locking my blog to myself as I can type everything I want to here. I'm loving dulcenayen.blogspot.com






[edited 0034]

Today's 19th. Every month on the 19th, something always goes wrong. It may be a curse from you, I don't know. I wished nothing goes wrong today. Got so many important things. IGCSE Chinese Oral today, haven't prepared my speech. School netball training today, fixtures are out, it's left to see who will play which position. Clique training tonight, will I play GK again? Or will I play C/WA? Or will I play what I loved to be -- WD? Let's see how the day goes.

Oh fuck, I'm back to bitting again. Shit, what am I trying to do..

& this is how i close...









Is this what happiness is about?

Hello! Woke up at 6.15am again?! When daffy and desi have all bathed finished?! What PSK-ers they are! Hahas. In the end, didn't bathe. *smelly me.* bad-hair-day. Couldn't stand it that I tied it up, making my fringe looking more weird than ever. urghh!! hate bad-hair-days... Left the house late due my father 'booming' the toilet bowl. Hahaha. =P

Slept in the car.. Went for breakfast.. Went to school.. Assembly was alright, although I didn't really understand what Miss Manly is saying. Netball fixtures out, Emily is playing for us, not bitchy Kim. I really jumped for joy. Hahaha. I wished I could play GK/GD/WD now.. Oh well, let's see how it goes. Not going to have any false hope again. Oh well..

Went for tutoral, Gina was in a foul mood. Checked skirts, I passed -- duh, my skirt is quite long.. Emily came in the class, and I knew she's dead from Gina. A dressing-down. Hahaha. Poor her, went for Admath later. Studied new chapter, applications. I have to start revising my work =| Went for recess, didn't do much, ate my coco-crunch that I brought to school. We were talking about make-ups, and oh yes, my darling has girl's eye that we can put eye shadow on. Hahahaha =P

Went for chemistry. Emily switched places with darling. I don't like the idea of it though. Yes, he may be my boyfriend, but I'm sorry, I can't neglect my friends. Well, he literally just stoned there. =| All because of rugby when he didn't want to go. Ahya, I give up. I couldn't be much bothered, but still I gave attitude to him. Ironic? Something about me just isn't right.. Went for emath, boring luh. Did work. Blah blah.

Left class, sat at the staircase waiting for him. He came out of the class singing, and when he saw me and Emily sitting there, he tio stun. Hahas. Sucker. Oh well. Ate lunch, bought new pencil. $102.70 and counting.. When will I ever get to pay back that amount of money.. I'm so heavily in debt.. Went for econs class, Yu en joined our class. I just entirely slack there. Time passes and it's time for Biology. Went for biology, I couldn't help but close my eyes and rest. i was dead tired. But I did my work. Homeworks.. *sighs*

Went for Chemistry extra lessons. Its only like 3 of us and Kevin gunawan there, he just plain copied teacher's work. Idiot. Then darling and liz came. Liz went off after awhile. Then I helped darling with his work. Then when everything was done, he accompanied me to the MRT station. Thanks darling. (: Went home, called him. Rahhs, I don't know what's going on now. I thought everything was alright, what's happening.. Gonna know about it more later? I'm alright.

Going do to work at 10pm later. Got 4 works to clear. I'm not going to be that slacker who does last minute homework! HARRR. I'm trying to study reaLLLLL hard now. Wish me all the best. =]






You make me wanna scream

Slept late last night, was doing my "tuition-project" Hahas =P Awws. Oh well, went to bed. Woke up late today! 6.15am! Goodness! CHIONG AHH! Hahas =P Forgot to bring my NYAA book AGAIN. Hahaha =P Went to eat breakfast, bought for darling. Went to school, saw a "snail" strolling to school. Hahahas. Reached school, sat at the foyer, waited for "snail". FINALLY REACHED! Goodness. Hahas. Went to the locker to put down stuffs, then gave him his breakfast, then went up to the hall. I gave him my "tuition-project" Hahas =P Went downstairs in the canteen, with desi, daffy and yaanmeng and they play the "game" Hahas =P Dam funny. INDIAAAAA. =X

Went for assembly. Got new vice-principal, he looks like a pastor instead of a vice-principal. Hahas. Freaking funny. I was tired that I fell asleep in the assembly until I heard something like "There will be a staff meeting at 4pm today." Then I woke up, Hahas! School ends at 3.50pm today! Instead of 4.30pm. Hahas. YES! No chemistry. LOL.

Went for tutorial (Emily was late for school! *pft), Gina hair was weird. Hahas =P She perm again - ugly. Today Chinese teacher didn't come school! So went to Desi's old teacher room. On the way there, so many things happened. I knew it, when term 2 starts, there goes the 'secret'. OH WELL, accommodate accommodate!! Chinese was boring, I was doing Biology homework with Chloe and Daniel. Hahahas. =DD

Went for recess, went to accompany darling to buy food. Hahas, I forced him to eat lettuce! It's okay what, not that bad as TOMATO. Haha. Later I was searching through his bag, and that's when everything went chaos. I got real pissed off -- walked off. Went for PE, he didn't come. Call him, didn't pick up. Sms him not to pon tan, and I saw him walking in the hall with red eyes. Went for PE (FRISBEEEEEEEEE!! =DD) at the field. I am quite pro can! It's abit like netball though, the stepping rule. Hahaha. Me and Desi rocks! =DD

Went to find him later, met him at the foyer (thank you Emily for bringing nick away), I expected something from him, what he got to say. But what we did was just, stares at each other, at times looking away. I got so fed up, I just went to the toilet, I tried to hold back, and when I lef the toilet, he was there. I stood in front of him, and we just stared at each other, and he just say "I'm sorry". I don't want to hear a sorry, I want something else, I want a why. Walked off for Biology, I calmed down and message him, but no reply.

Biology was practical! We had to cut a cow's eye ball! AWWWS, my fellow friends. Hahaha! =P On yes, me and Desi swap places with Min Zhi and Betty. Oh well, now we're at the back. =| Sians. But never mind (: Finally received a message from him, telling me that he slipped in a letter in my locker. I went to check it, tears just rolled down, I couldn't hold back. A small issue of me being petty can cause such a big shit. Thanks Sarah, Daniel, Yaanmeng, Videttee and of course SISTERS!

Went for English. Was quite okay, very very cold. :S Brrrrrrs... I think I'm getting better at English, I think =| and I wished I can get better! =DD Today's class has so little people, I prefer it that way :] After English, school's over at 3.50pm! Went to canteen and do work. Waited for darling till 6pm?

Later had a talk with him. I don't know if it helps though, but I hope it did :] Later went home, SUPER LATE ALREADY. 6.30pm, accompanied by darling. Thanks darling (: Reached home at 7.15pm? Dinner-ed, tv-ed, now : slacking. Waiting for time to pass. Hahas =P Byeee. Still have to blog at 2 more places. SB & LJ






I know everything changes

What a night. What a weakling. What a friend. Woke up at 10am. It was quite difficult for my maid to wake me up. Haha. She has been trying to wake me up since 9am, but I was so tired that I didn't bother. Hahaha =P She pissed me off by tickling me, pinching my nose. ROAR. Hahas =X No one does that to me when I'm sleeping! Hahas.

Went for breakfast. Got treated by my sister. She won $40+ for last night's mahjong. They play since 11pm till 5+am in the morning. SIAO LAH. Hahas =P Oh well, breakfast was okay. My dajie brought princess along. Hahas =P

Went home. Slack awhile, then we play mahjong! WAH. Finally I won money lah! $5.40. Teehee, but didn't recoup my loss. OH WELL, It's okay. Hahas! =P later went to do a bit of work. Then slack slack slack, and the afternoon just passed like that.

Went out for dinner. Almost got people fight becaues of lame stuffs. 67 year-old guy. HA HA HA. Funny ass. Went to heartland mall to update bank book and check if the person got put in $17. My mummy gave me $100! I'm so happy. I'm not broke. HENGG. Teehee. Came home, slack slack slack.

Now I'm here, my stomach hurts. talking to MR QUEK and emily yiu online. *sighs*






Dreams can't take the place of loving you

Friday, 140308

Well, continuing from after losing $16 in mahjong *whines* sisters go out watch movie. I went out at 4.30pm, thinking I would have companion, but nope. Walked around PS from 4.30 to 6.30 =( Went to the bank, I thought I had money for dinner, but what's in my bank? $109.49 and $100 is not mine.. I'm suppose to withdraw $75 to pay fees later, where am I going to find that amount of money. =( In the end, withdraw $50 (owe my bank $50, whines) Wanted to eat dinner, but I only had $2 note and the rest are coins, and I don't have much coins. *whines* Wanted to eat fast food (that's the cheapest food there), but I didn't have seat to sit down (I didn't sit down for 2hrs?!) Then I went to the food court, i wanted to eat mee pok, but it was $3.80/$4.80. I was like OMGH. Then in the end, my dinner was 2 pieces of bread which cost me $2.50 :( I'm so ke lian.

Went for training. We didn't have court! then we share court with some random people. Hahhas =P In the end, we see free court, then we play game. I was play GK lah! OMGHS. I didn't play that position AT ALL. GD I got lah, but GK NEVER! Goodness! I was dam lost, but was alright luh. Just didn't have the communication with mel/yu han. Hahas =P TRAIN TRAIN! GK make me keep jumping luh! I like it! HAHAHA. Training ended, went to eat "dinner" with Siying. She ask alot of questions lah! Hahas.

Reached home at 12mid. I saw my maid! SHE CAME BACK FROM OVERSEAS! WHEE! Hahas! She bought me new slippers! AWWWS! Touched. Slept at 1.50am, talked to BRIAN QUEK. hahas. =D

Saturday, 150308

Woke up 9am? Went to the market (sounds like a Sunday to me). Came home, bathe. Waited for that SLOW brina quek to come over to do work. And he came at 2pm?! Goodness. Hahas. =DD Did work halfway, then talked to him. Hahas! goodness, I swear. I can't study at home! RAHH. Hahas! Some don't-study-at-home aura in my house. HAHA. Oh well. Later at 6pm, I accompanied him to the MRT, but we made a detour, I went to get waffles. I was so freaking hungry. Hahas =DD

Went to fetch my brother at his friend's, then went for dinner at some place. Didn't go before. Their sambal fried rice is dam nice! I'm so loving it! Oh well. Went home, now I'm here. Talking to YAANMENG (the cannot trust him) and a LONGGG wait for a reply. Hahas =DD TATAS.






Have you ever

Thursday, 130308

I'm sorry, I'll try my best. Woke up at 7.30am to wake mr pig up. hahas =P Then went back to sleep, then woke up at 9am? Went to eat breakfast. Then came home, bathe ALL the doggies. Goodness. Havoc man. Later my siblings play mahjong, I sat there and watch. I was like the LUCKY CHARM. Hahas. Oh well. Later wanted to do work, but then didn't, did calculations. Hahas =P

Went for dinner, SUSHI! Poor daffy couldn't eat alot of things, but she KOP 1 tako. Hahaha =P OH WELL. Later went home, stone stone stone on computer. Talked to darling halfway, went to sleep. I felt a sense of distant, no longer the same feeling. Maybe I'm just too sensitive.

Friday, 140308

Tiring night. =( Woke up at 8am, didn't wake up at 7.30 to wake up darling. Oh well, went back to sleep. Woke up at 9am? Then ate breakfast at home, on the computer, stupid dad off the internet. So in the end, we played mahjong. I won the first 2 games, then in the end, LOST $20. Rahhs. Then went for lunch at coffe shop outside our house, chicken rice. Then went home, finish mahjong. In the end, lost $18, but my brother was kind enough to gave up his $2 winnings. So in the end, lost $16. Still SIANS.

Daffy went out with Daniel, Desi going out with Chang later, brother having tuition. What am I going to do. *whines* I need to be indepedent, I can't always 靠男人！ Hahas =P Oh well, Yes. Training at kallang later, hoping to see you come, maybe not yeah? Don't want to hope so much. Bye.






I shouldn't have trust.

HEY! So long didn't blog! I'm going to put it into point form! I'm so lazy. Hahash!
Saturday & Sunday
- Sister's wedding
- tired
- will say more about it
- will post more pictures about it.

Monday
- HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY MARCUS ENG.
- whole family at home, in the morning
- went out to watch movie with darling
- went home, dinner.

Tuesday
- Out the whole day
- Collect IC and passport

Wednesday
- tuition in the afternoon
- now i'm here.






Suddenly I see, this is what I want to be

Woke up at 7am by darling! Hahas, talk talk talk until 7.10am! SHIT! Faster chiong go bathe, hahahas! Finished bathing, I went to cook instant mee, I was so hungry! And thus, resulting in a late attendance. Hahaha! Chapel was alright, I was freezing! Going to become snow city soon man! Oh well!

Later GAMES DAY STARTED! (: I played netball (Duh). And then we won! WHEEE! 1st! hahas! I played 1 game of basketball too! Kai suddenly came up to me and tell "Can you please please please play basketball for us? We need a girl" HUH! Then I went, goodness. OH WELL. We won too! Teehee! I shot 2 points in! TEEHEE! So tyco. Haha! =P

Went to take prize and blah blah. Didn't take for basketball, so pahseh. Hahas! Went for lunch with sisters, yaanmeng, sophia, sarah, vidette, and darling. It was quite funny lah. Hahas =DD Oh well. (: Later wanted to take a taxi to my brother's school to fetch him. But our taxi stand queue was so long that my brother came down and fetch us. Hahas =DD

Went home, then straight away was ordered to go the provision shop to buy small onions, then come home, peel them. I didn't tear! Hahas! everyone else teared but ME! TEEHEE!. Pro-ness ^^ Later cut garlic, washed 2 cars, dinner, paint toe nails, pluck eye brow. OH WELL.

I think everything is done? (: All the best for my dajie's wedding tomorrow! My mummy is being so unreasonable, saying family will get VIP. Then place 3 of us RIGHT at the back of the dinner. Wth. So angry. Couldn't be borthered. Piss me off like shit. My favourite heels lend my sister, I have to wear some heels I don't really like to wear. I can't wear earrings because of my closed ear hole. Fcuk lah, I'm going to look disgusting tomorrow. Angry.

Omghs. Darling cried luh. Goodness, I'm so sorry dear. It was partly my fault =| I'll talk to you soon. I have to wake up at like 5am tomorrow? I'm so bloody unhappy with my mummy now. She's not the one getting married and she keeps shouting in the house. Goodness. I should not get married next time. =.="





P.S I Love You

Woke up at 6.15! OMGH, chiong chiong chiong. Mr duck didn't wake up! Then I call him, he didn't pick up. In the end, he called me back. Hahas. Went for breakfast! Came up on the car, heard my phone ring. Guess what? He fell asleep and just woke up. HARHAR.

Went to school, locker, then went to hall. Mr duck is soooo sick! I bought him water though, but it's COLD. WHOOPSY. hahas. Assembly was okay luh. Then roam around, do nothing. Saw darling come down, looking so pale, he's going to sick bay. Take care! Had E math! Haha! Was quite boring, but OH WELL! ^^

Went for recess, forgot what I did, then went for class. Biology? Yeah, then study the eye, goodness. We're going to dissect a cow's eye! In the start of term 2. GOODNESS. I almost puke looking at it! Later went for English, COBB wasn't here! HENGG. I haven't read my book yet lorh. Hahas! Then went to what MR SNEER? He's dam funny lah! Got work to do! But I only read finish the story by the end of the lesson, so didn't do anything. HAHAS. I'm a slow reader, yes.

Went for lunch, waited for ducky outside his class. So pathetic, sit there and wait, everyone just pass me and like glance at me. LOL! Hahas. OH WELL, went for lunch. Did econs coursework, like touch up, every thing's done - PRINT! Hahas. then went to eat lunch. Went for economics later! We were like celebrating for the first 20mins of lesson! Celebrate what? Celebrate that coursework 1 is over. HAHA! Gina is really very high. Desi and Gina was snatching for food in the class. HAHA! That was dam funny Later studied. (: Did work, I didn't understand at all. I hate MCQs in economics, I always score in structured only. Hahas =P

So freaking sleepy. Went for chemistry, C2 and C3 coursework. Shit luh, the acid went into my skin and corrode it. It hurts like shit, now my finger looks odd. Went for Chinese lesson after that. You just disappoint me like that. Oh well, went back to chemistry to do finish my C3. Then by the time I leave school, it's 6pm. I'm so tired. And I still have to carry 2 thick files and 1 laptop home. *whines*

Came home, dinner-ed, tv, here am I now! I'm going to sleep soon and wake up later to do E math work. *YAWNS* Nighty (:





You've touched my heart.

Hello! Woke up, breakfast. Went to school, did ABIT of admath homework. Hahas. =P Assembly, then got briefing about the Africa trip! I want to go! It's dam cool! All the country side life. I like it! But guess how much? $5000. FAINTS. Not going. Hahas!

Went for Admath, everyone didn't do homework! Hahahs! Then everyone chiong in class! TEEHEE! I finished! HOHOHO! Later went for break! Didn't do anything, was so bored. Wanted to sleep, yet want to read my book. In the end, I just stoned there for the entire 1hr? Then went for Literature class. Emily really scares me in Literature class. The whole time I was thinking and thinking what to say. I though I could handle it. In the end of the class, she didn't want to tell me, I really didn't know what to do. I tried so hard to hold back, thanks Sarah for her hugg. (:

Went to the canteen. I couldn't help but just cry. Sorry if I scared anyone. Hahas, especially Vidette. Wahahas =P Well, thank you for being there for me, you really moved me. I was really moved to the coreeee. I want to thank - Sophia, Vidette, Sarah, Sisters, Yaan Meng, Ananya, Marcus. Most importantly, Emily and Brina. Went to Econs class late because was talking to Emily. EM ILY! hahas! I made that up! Teehee!

Economics class! Went late! Goodness, gina scolded me. HAHA, I gave some crap excuse that I had stomachache. TEEHEE =X Well, I was very hardworking and studied! (: Although I stoned at times. Gina was scolding us because she said we too stressed up until go kuku! Then later she don't know do what wrong, then steven say "Madam also go KUKU already lah!" Then entire class laugh lahh! Dam funny! I love my econs class! Hahas!

Went to the gym after school (netball), talk talk talk. Later talk 1-to-1 with germaine, I almost cried again, oh well. I need to do something about what she said, like seriously, it's not easy being captain. I thought it's just leading the team for warm ups and all that, I just realized, it's more than that. I'll have to think what to do to improve the team and all that. *sighs* I'm giving up on becoming captain. Went to CCAB to watch match, then collect the token of participation. SO PAHSEH. Hahas

Went home, dinner, then went out to post letter for mummy. Now I'm here! I'm so tired. Need to burn midnight oil tonight! Nighty!





Everything has come to an end

Thanks Yaanmeng for last night. Was on the verge of giving up, but my courage made me happier. I want to thank YAANMENG, SHALENE, JOSEPHINE BOOBOO, BEEFANG, HANBOON, MARCUS and most importantly you! (:

Woke up at 5.59am today! I was so high in the morning, I even went up to desi's bed and brush my teeth there! HAHAHA. I'm crazy. Left the house at 6.35am because mummy was so long! Hahaha =DD Went to eat breakfast, then went to school. Queky bought breakfast (macs) for us! TEEHEE =DD Went to the hall, assembly. Darling Emily was late! Hahas =DD

Went for tutoral, $10 fly away. AWWS. On my way to admath class, David was like "Eh, Dulcena. I want to talk to you later." Sounded dam serious lah! Scare me =S Went for admath, kana scolded by teacher for not handing up homework. =S WHOOPSY. She wanted to drop my grade! =S ROAR. Well, study applications thingy. Then got back test paper! 20/20! Hahas. =DD Happy happy! Went for break, tried doing admath work. Then saw David, so asked me what happen, his reaction was like as if I've gotten into deep shit (Which I don't think I did) or as if I was going to die tomorrow. Then in the end, guess what? He told me to be careful of my captain's position, he said that he heard that Kim is trying to snatch away from me. LOL. Hahahas. OH WELL.

Went for chemistry class! It was quite alright luh. I got 5 4 for C2 and C3. TSKK! Oh well, studied periodic table! Mark can go and die lah, explain to him, he still don't understand. SLAP HIM. Then Joshua was like being stupid, everyone ask him if he had to go back to school for lessons on Saturday. Then his reply "Oh, I go back to school on Saturday... For floorball." I was like what the hecks. Stupid fool. Hahaha! I told Emily of what David told me, her reaction was dam big, she stood up and say "I KNEW IT!" Haha! Then we both laugh. I love Emilyyy (:

Went for Emath, did new topic. Left class early, went to canteen. Do work. Didn't eat. Kop queky's food. TEEHEE. =P It's just a piece of bread that I kop.. Went for economics, didn't do much. Went for biology, studied about the eye. CLASS ENDED. Went for Chemistry remedial, it helps! (: I kinda of forgot everything that was taught last year. Shits.. Need to start studying..

Went to see rugby match! Good game! =DD Desi was so high and screamed like man, ally too! Hahas. We won! =DD Went to do A BIT of work later. Chatted with steven song (I can't believe it. He's a OKAY guy luh! But he's just quite screwed up. HAHA). Left the school at 7pm, reached home at 8.15pm. So tired. Ate dinner, now I'm here! (:

I'm going to bed! And wake up later to do work. I've slack too much. WHOOPSY! =DD Nighty!





Everything is so unstable now

Woke up, went for breakfast. Shared noodles with daffy. I was already so high in the morning. Bought breakfast for sick duck. TEEHEE. Went to school, samuel was so noisy, 3 of us were screaming at him. He's so disgusting! Well, yaanmeng came and he SIAM! Wahhaas! Duck looked so sick! I forced him to drink 1 whole bottle of water during assembly. TEEHEE!

Went for tutoral! I was so auntie! HAHA, got free gift, straight away in front of the class. HAHAHA. Went for chinese. Did test again. ROAR. Forced duck to drink another bottle of water. Wahahas. *LJ, I'm just getting too confused, I just want to know the truth* Went for recess, ate brownie that duck baked for me! (: It's not bad luh! Hahas. Compliments for you! :]

Went for PE! Played basketball! Hahas, got so sticky, then later played hand ball! DAM FUN LAH! Hahas =P Kana thrash by tall people. *pouts* hate being short, rahhs! Later went for Biology, got back test paper. 17/23 sucks. Hate it. Go and die, I'm starting to hate Biology :[

Went for lunch, ate pasta. Stupid yaanmeng, SHUT YOUR MOUTH. Marcus is so much more trust-able than you! Idiot. Went for English. Was so tired, did persuasive again. This time, I wrote ALOT. Wahahas =DD Love myself for being like that. TEEHEE. Went for chemistry, dam idiot, I just passed the dam test! I'm giving up already.

After school, went home. Slack slack slack, dinner-ed, tuition-ed. Now I'm here. Bored. :[ Learned a new word today! CONTEMPLATE! Another word for ponder. Dam cool :]

So many things running through my head. So many craps. I just feel like giving up all now. I just hate it, this is too much for me. I can't handle. Just tell me the truth, the entire truth, let the haze disappear and make me see the blue sky. I'm holding back too much. Drop by drop, day by day. This is torturing.





I just feel like screaming and say I LOVE YOU.

Everything is so confusing now! I just feel like saying I LOVE YOU to some people! Shalene sweetie, Bifang dear, Emily bestieee, TAN HANBOON bestieeee(I didn't forget you!) MR MARCUS ENG (wahahhshsa!), Iain teh! I simply miss them. They're all so cute in different ways, wahahas =DD I miss all of them! TEEHEE. I wish I could hug them so much now. LOVE YA GUYS! (:

It's scaring me now. I've been dreaming EVERY NIGHT or EVERYTIME I sleep. SCARY SCARY SCARY! *screams* I wished I could run away from here! Take care mr queky! My brownies are at stake tml! =S Wahahsa. =DD Take care! ^^

Well, I've cleared up my friendship with Emily. We kinda of "quarrel" but in the end, we talked it out. I hope she means what she said to me, if not I'll be really hurt. Well, shalene, YOU STILL OWE ME ALOT OF THINGS. wahahs =DD I'm waiting my dear! One more thing uncleared. Hope to clear it soon.

I'm so stressed up now. I'm so slack. Saw my grades, like shit. All i see is 4s. ROAR. Dam sad, knew I will get these type of grades. ARGH, screw it. Hold for another week, and everything will be over! I'll start working hard for prelims! :S GOOD NIGHT.





I think I'm moving, but I go nowhere

Slept at 1+ last night! Talking to ugly on the phone. Hahaha! URGHH. Had a lousy dream. Dreamt of you. Sometimes I really wonder if I love you or I hate you. Both at extremes, yet unable to make up my mind. I give up. You made me so afraid, you made me so upset, you made me so confused, you made me go nowhere. But I think I'm able to give you up, give me time. I'm not ready for anything more than that yet.

Woke up at 9am. Went market. Usual routine. My neck is so stiff, slept wrongly last night. Cannot turn to the left now. Bye bye auntie RO-DIN-NIA (don't know how to spell), hope your mummy get well soon! May the God bless all of you! (: Make sure to buy me jollibee! Hahas! Went marketing! We had to push the trolley ourselves. Hahaha! =P *PFTT* I'm not pampered! I pushed okay! Hahahs =DD Heard the song "Ning jing", reminds me of yuan qiu! I miss SKSS people so much luh! We've distant! ): I'm so sad. Hahas.

I'm now here, ROTTING. ROARS. Stupid rain, stop raining! I want to go out and study! ROARS. Rainy days makes me wants to sleep. Hahahs! =DD CYAAA.





Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl?

Woke up at like 9am? I'm so tired. Talk to queky until like 12.15am last night while waiting for CHANG SI YING when she told me that she will come online and talk to me! ROAR. Hahas. I whine so much last night. Hahaha =P And I taught queky how to "pet" his stomach. HAHAH! DAM FUNNY. I'm so funny. =P

Went for breakfast at Hougang. I ate like 1 whole plate of GYOZA! I love it so much, but it's dam oily. And my stomach wasn't feeling good after that, I can't take too much oily stuff at one time and SOME MORE IN THE MORNING. Hahaha. Whoopsy! Sorry stomach! Hahas. Came home, then my future brother-in-law came over and give the before wedding gifts. Something like that lah, I forgot what's the word. HAHA. But I took photos (with my new handphone. LOL) uploading later! ^^

Well, was so bored throughout the day. That I sat at my bed, started to think. Then took out my book H.R.S and read. After reading the 3rd chapter, I fell asleep. Hahaha! Omghs, stop making me dream of you1 that I'll be so guilty later. Woke up at 6pm, everyone is awake! Mummy not home, daddy not home, brother not home, sister not home. Home became a boring word ): What a Saturday wasted.

Now I'm here, in front of my computer, doing NOTHING. I'm plain bored. I hope someone surprises me and entertain me (which I think it won't happen) See you (:

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