dulcena yen ♥

Aim for the stars

2012-01-27T17:45:00.000Z

Exams are finally over, well technically it was long over about a week ago. But I didn't have the time to blog about it till now. Exams ended on Wednesday and we're getting back our results next Wednesday. Well, overall I feel that the exam was average. Biology was a major shock, I think I will pass, but not with a good score. Chemistry was okay, but never putting too much hopes on it either.

After exams, I had to clean up the mess I made in the kitchen and I did it all by myself. By the time night came, I was dead tired and fell asleep. Hahaha :):) Packed my luggage for the weekend at London with my family! :):) My parents came up to UK to celebrate Chinese New Year with us! :):)

My dress for CNY! :):) It's pretty plain, but I guess there is nothing else I could wear. Hahaha :):)

And yes! As usual, we had the traditional dishes that my dad would make every year for reunion dinner but this time, we went to a restaurant to eat because it was difficult for my dad to find all the ingredients he needed to cook and the woks and all the other stuffs. Weekend at London was awesome, but as soon as I got back from London, school starts all over again.

I just needed a break from school. Never really had a proper holiday which I do not need to have studies at the back of my mind. But I guess that's how this course is, 1 day break after the exams and here we are, intensive 2-weeks research course and guess what? I got the hardest topic to research on - The Physic Garden. You don't know what it is? Research it, and FYI, it is not botanic gardens!!

This whole week was in lectures, learning about statistics and presentation skills lecture. I have no idea why by the time I get home which is around 4.30pm, I get so tired and by 10pm, I just want to shut my eyes, but I try to keep myself awake till 12midnight by doing work/surfing the net, then I went to bed. It's finally the end of the week! Going to dundee with my parents tomorrow to do some shopping because I'm LACKING my necessities, shall not list them because it's PERSONAL. Hahaha :):)

But.. Yeah, that's all I've got to say. Nothing really interesting in my life right now. So good night to those in Singapore and have a good evening to those in the UK :) ANDD... HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARJEET KAUR.

The hardest thing.

Because we will rise to the top

2012-01-14T12:04:00.001Z

Finally! The day has come. All the past week of studying, this is the day to vomit out all the knowledge I tried to cramp in my head. Hahaha :):) Well, exams in 2hrs but right now, nothing is going in. Just waiting for time to pass and eat my lunch. Hahahaha :):) Good luck all :D:D

I like it like that

2012-01-06T15:01:00.001Z

Exams are coming up in a week's time and I'm still here in the festive mood. Its pretty hard to get use the education system here where January is exams because usually January is when we start our school and we're all still playing around. Hahaha! Anyway, haven't been doing too good in my academic, but I'm going to turn it all around in sem 2. In sem 1, I just kept bumping around, bruising myself quite a bit, but people do learn.

Just got my timetable for sem 2, it's going to be crazy and stressful, but somehow I am actually quite interested in the modules in sem 2 and somehow I am actually looking forward to it. I must say that I messed up my sem 1 modules quite hard, but OH WELL. 10% + 30%. Oh goodness, its 40%. BUT I CAN DO IT :) So dulcy, fighting :) And also, to daffy, kor kor and desi, all the YENS, FIGHTING :D I like it how we all have iPhones now and we can have group whatsapp. CHECK IN TIME :D

Love ya

Happy New Year 2012

2012-01-01T02:12:00.001Z

New beginnings.

Its coming to an end

2011-12-31T03:03:00.002Z

Hopes of 'it' being the misery.

So 2011 is coming to an end. I must say, this year hasn't been good to me at all. But I'm glad I made it through 2011. There were many up and downs but I guess that's life. Regression to the norm, right? But I'm glad that I'll be spending my last day of 2011 and first day of 2012 with my love ones around me.

I'm very appreciative of the people around me, especially my family members. They have been the most supportive people I can ever have. 2 weeks here in London with the people I haven't met in 3months and I feel so at home, even though I so far away from home. Spending our first Christmas alone abroad, having to skype with the other half of the family, with the crazy 8hours time difference. It was tiring, but I never once regret doing it, in fact, I had so much joy even though it was different. Tonight will be another round of reunion over skype, watching soccer together and may watch the fireworks in London. I can't wait :):) I dread going back, I dread the separation. Just when I get comfy here, I have to leave.

Like I said, things haven't been treating me well, maybe I haven't been treating myself well. Started off the year with job shadowing at various hospital which was really interesting and fun. Got to know a few doctors that I really look up to and kept in contact with some :) Gotten back my IB results which was pretty expectable but again not what I was looking for. CNY has been pretty memorable, considering that it would be my last CNY in Singapore till a pretty long time. Valentines day was amazing, my boyfriend was the sweetest guy ever.

As days passes, my chance of getting into a University gets lower and lower, till the day I came to realize that my chance is actually 0% - I broke down. I blamed how life was so unfair, I blamed how stupid the system was, I blamed everyone but myself. I regret, for once, not choosing the correct universities. I knew I was capable of something, so much potential but no action. That was what disappointed me. At that moment, I gave up. I gave up on everything. Went on Europe tour for 5 weeks. Spend the most amazing time together with my siblings. Not long till I came back, someone, who I thought wasn't close to me but it is actually deep down in my heart, left us. I never really spend time with her, to get to know her much, I thought I was distant from her, but when the news broke out, I broke down. Flashbacks starting appearing in my head and tears couldn't stop flowing. I never knew how someone could watch me grow up from a distant.

Had to study for my retakes in May/June when I was back from my Europe trip. It was pretty disappointing results, but at least an improvement is an improvement. It will always be so near yet so far. And yes, I took my driving test, failed the first time with a pathetic immediate failure with 26points, but finally passing the second with flying colours and confidence with 4points. I woke up to reality, knowing that I was most probably taking a gap year, I should find a job, which I ended up being a tuition teacher, earning some money and giving a portion to my parents rather than taking pocket money from them.

And I started to do things I always wanted to do, but was afraid - pick up the guitar again. With the help of my musically talented boyfriend, he patiently taught me how to play the guitar and sing, boosting my confidence. And another thing was modeling, I always wanted to do it, but I know I was never a cookie cutter. But with the help and support of my sisters, we became blogshop models for a blogshop. We were really crappy, but at least a tick off my list :) Went for a shopping trip to bangkok with my family which was AMAZING because I manage to buy lots of clothes for super cheap prices :)

And I was growing fatter by the day, getting more and more unfit, I had to do something. Thank you for the opportunity that was given to me for us to join extremes. It was another dream that I've always wanted. It probably is the happiest thing that ever happened to me in 2011. Getting to train with the experienced and the pros really was a once in a life time chance. I grew a year older with little surprise, I was thankful for those around me who celebrated with me - extremes and boyfriend. The cake was simply cute. And extremes finally made my wish come true - to emerge first in any competition because the past few years, I have always been this close to becoming a champion, but never once did. I was thankful, thankful for everything. But sadly, all happiness had to be cut short, we had to leave.

The moment I knew that I got into University of St Andrews, I was really jumping for joy because my sisters got accepted too. So many thoughts went through my mind about the three of us, together, going through uni. Everything was going so well, but of course, nothing ever ends happy in 2011. Time was ticking down on me, the food to eat, the things to clear, the people to catch up, the preparation of a whole new life. I thought I was ready, but till now, I'm never ready.

September came and a new life began. I was excited, I was happy, but soon all this died. New friends, new environment, new problems - I couldn't take everything. The only thing that I was proud of is that I made it to the netball team in St Andrews. Mistakes and mistake have been made, but I didn't learn from all of them, which what killed me. I then realize myself so much more, what I actually am. I needed to grow up fast, but I'm just not doing it. I guess it takes time. So I will shut my doors, till then.

So that's how 2011 have been for me. The lowest point. So will 2012 be better or will it stay the same? Being positive, I will say everything is regression to the norm, so it will be a better year. I've survived a shitty year, I'm sure I'll be able to survive another. So today is the last day of 2011 and soon when the clock strike 12midnight, 2011 will be the past and the present will be 2012. The start of a new beginning.

So as usual, new year's resolution for 2012. (1) To stop all vulgarities. (2) To save 500pounds. (3) To do well for IFM. (4) To grow up. (5) To blog more. (6) To help the people around me. (7) To start my 365. (8) To lose at least 5kg. (9) To do at least 20 crunches every morning when I wake up. And so many more. Good bye, my misery.

Merry Christmas

2011-12-24T21:11:00.000Z

merry christmas to everyone :) different but same. i love my family a lot. more to blog soon. good night and have a great christmas everyone.

The super collider

2011-12-21T20:59:00.000Z

I'm finally in London. Finally, after 13 weeks of being apart. How I miss the physical touch and being in the same photo frame with the same background :) There's so much going on and went but I just want to focus on the time from now till then. So, I'm sorry for the lack of updates and I will update as soon as I am back in St Andrews :) So for now, just photos from my photobooth! :):)

<3 love you guys to bits. Can't believe I'm celebrating Christmas with you guys.

Tired

2011-12-11T01:29:00.002Z

I just want to be selfish and think about myself. Only myself.

Cause I'm living my truth without your lies

2011-12-03T03:58:00.001Z

The week has passed. Emotions filling up the bottle and just by a slip of the hands of balance, it drops and all emotions started to spill all over. So should the pieces be picked up? Or just sweep it away and find another bottle, hoping it will be bigger than the current one. Should the hands be given the second chance to start all over again? What if fails again? Insecurity builds up again.

Today, I just felt pathetic and frustrated. So much potential, yet all gone to waste. So I ask myself, what have I done wrong? Have I not done enough? Was I wrong to slowly drop my standards? Was I wrong not to push? The embarrassment I had today was one of the worst I've ever had. So what went wrong? I can't find answers. Maybe it is straight in my face, but I'm just not admitting to it. So Mr Know It All, you think you know it all, but you don't know a thing at all. So in a snap, everything is lost. I just feel so frustrated by the fact that something that has so much potential just crushes like that due to complacency, laziness, neglect, difference in aims. The next time, I'm doing it right. You ain't going to bring me down anymore. Once is good enough for me to swallow a couple gulps of water. I'm not going down twice, you're going down alone, and I will kick further down. Watch out.

It's a pathetic cycle. You're tired, I'm tired, but because of your thickness of your face, you're just not giving up. I've already admitted defeat, and you still give a strong front when from the back, you have already stick a 'HELP' sign on your back. It's stupid how there's no skeleton to your body, how do you expect us to lean on you? That is not how things work here. That is not how things work on Earth. Time to wake up, you're twice my age, but half the maturity of an average person at your age. But nevertheless, power overrules all other things, so I shall end here.

Enough tears have been shed. Enough tissues have been used. Enough rants. Because you know what, Mr Bring Me Down, you like to bring me down don't you? But I'm not lying down, I'm not going down. Can't nobody tell me how it's going to be, nobody going to make a fool out of me. Baby, you should know that I lead, not follow. I come back stronger each time. I will. You think you know me, but baby, you don't know a thing about me.

Mr play your games, you only got yourself to blame.

Author of the moment, can you tell me, do I end up happy?

2011-11-27T21:35:00.000Z

Haven't been blogging for 2 weeks already! My blog is seriously dying! I have been taking quite a few photos, but I just didn't have the time to sit down to think and reflect on my days. Time has been passing too quickly. I've been abroad for 10 weeks now, that's how fast time have past. In another 3-4 weeks more, I'll be making my way down to London to see my favourite people.

Throughout the week, I had lots of thoughts. Thoughts that made me laugh, made me vulnerable, made me confused, all sorts of emotions. But if you ask me to pen down into words, I can't. So enough of the trying-to-be-cool-and-post-a-emotional-post, I will show you some of the photos that I've taken throughout the 2 weeks and most of it is just me trying to camwhore because my sisters said that I've lost my camwhoring skills, and I'm so sad about that. HAHA :):)

Autumn! That's how the road to school looks like 2 weeks ago. Now all the leaves have fallen off and it looks so spooky. :(:( Winter is really approaching.

So we had a party, we called it the The Double Helix Essay Is Over Party! Hahaha! Well, it's just because everyone have submitted their essays on Thursday and the party was held on Friday night. It was pretty alright? First time going to 'bob' and my friend pushed me down on the floor. Idiot guy. HAHA.

Shafiq :D

June!

Dawn! :):)

So my brother came up the last weekend and left on Monday because he had school on Tuesday. The main reason why he came up is because Shuk Yee's birthday is on Wednesday! Hahaha! It was a pretty awesome weekend with him! He bought us lots of food and as an older brother, he checked on what type of food we eat, whether it is nutritious enough for us. And of course, he pointed out that we should eat more fish because it is 'brain food'. I don't know how true is that, but I guess I should be eating fish! So desi and I decided to have fish day on Wednesday and Sunday! Hahaha :):)

& of course, we had our usual steamboat! :):) It was super super yummy this time round because mummy gave us some chicken cubes that does not have MSG inside and it's SUPER EXPENSIVE :):) Just in time for our steamboat! There are many flavours such as ikan bilis and tomyam too! Can't wait to try all of them! A taste of home food :) So anyway, steamboat was good because we bought prawns to put in the soup! It was amazing! :D:D And the lamb roll too! :):)

Birthday dinner with the birthday girl at The Doll's House! It is claimed to be one of the better restaurants in St Andrews and everyone seemed to enjoy it until.... when shukyee asked us (desi and I) about the food, 3 of us concluded that the food wasn't as good as it was praised. Hahaha! But oh well, at least we had a great time during dinner :):)

NATASHA! I haven't seen her in the longest time! :( Just because she lives so far away from us. It's so sad :( I hope she moves to DRAFP next academic year! But I think the chances are quite low. Hahaha! :):) Miss her!

The people who attended the party :D

Birthday girl and me! :)

On Wednesday I had a very crazy schedule. I started class at 9am till 1pm (no breaks in between, just the break for me to walk from class to class). I then had to rush to town to attend the Singapore Society Exo meeting (Oh yes, did I say? I am the secretary for the Singapore Society! but I'm not doing well in my job, I need vidette's help. HAHA). It lasted till about 2.05pm? Then I went to attend another meeting, staff-student thingy in ELT.

It is seriously amazing how students try to bargain their way through but they really don't use their brains. As you know, students will always complain about the amount of work they have on them, but suck it up, it will always be like that. Just deal with it. Yes, you can whine and cry about it, but at the end of the day, you'll still do it! Like there are representatives from IFM (me, noura and jay), social science, arts, science, pre-masters, pre-diploma. And seriously, every single one of them complains about the amount of work load, except me. The pre-masters representatives are the best, they complain how they don't have time to party and go clubbing because they spend like 20hours/day on studying. LIKE SERIOUSLY, it's none of the teachers' business to care whether you party or not. If you want to party, you make sure you quickly finish your work so you have the time! Can you believe it, pre-masters students?! They are like 23-25years of age and they're acting like that!!

So anyway, enough of the rants! Back to my story, the staff-student meeting ended at around 3.30pm?! Jay rode his bike back and I've hitched a ride back to DRA to get changed for training! I was REALLY late for training as it starts at 3pm. By the time I got changed and all, it was already 3.50pm. Thanks to desi, who didn't want me to starve, cooked my favourite dish - gyoza!! And she left a note to the other flatmates! It was so cute that I had to take a picture of the note! I forgot to take a photo of the food with the note because I gobbled it down so quickly. Hehehe :):)

So anyway! This weekend was a pretty slack weekend, I guess? I told myself that I will finish all my work and start revising on my uni modules, but guess how much I've done - 0%. Nothing at all! Saturday was just a full day of filming for the project work that is due this coming Friday. Look how professional we are. HAHA, kidding, I'm sure it wouldn't turn out to be nice. Just crossing my fingers! :):) Today is just one whole day of cleaning because I haven't cleaned my room/flat for 2 weeks already. I felt so disgusted that I just had to clean today. The noise I hear from the vacuum cleaner each time it sucks up a tiny stone is so freakishly frightening. I feel so clean right now.

All I have to do now is start doing my work, so I guess I'll end my post here :) See you blogger :)

We all have a story to tell. Whether we whisper or yell.

You got to make it alone or keep a straight face

2011-11-14T22:16:00.000Z

So last week was reading week, it was even worst than a normal schooling week! I thought reading week was for me to catch up and revise on my chemistry and biology modules but I guess I was wrong. I had even more work than before. So much more tired than I ever was.

I am so glad that I have good flatmates, except the girl from China. Mariam and Gvanca treat me and my sister so well :) That's what I like about staying in a student accommodation, this is what I was looking forward to when I came overseas - an apartment filled with laughters, eating and cooking together at the kitchen, hanging out together at the kitchen, studying together in the kitchen. The feeling is so amazing. If I had a choice to pick my flatmates again, I would pick Mariam and Gvanca again, but kicking that China girl out and replacing with the original owner - daffy. Feeling aside, let's see the photos! :):)

On Tuesday, we decided to bake a chocolate cake! Well, we wanted to bake on Sunday, but were lazy and Monday was a crazy long day at school that the entire flat was quiet by 9pm because everyone crashed in bed so early.

Gvanca :) She's from Georgia! I love her eyes, AMAZING.

Noura! She's not from my flat, but she always hangs out at our flat because FLAT 6 people are AWESOME! :):) It's sad how people neglect their kitchen for a place to hang out, have fun and chat with others! Only my kitchen have this type of atmosphere :)

The successful chocolate cake that we made! We made two cakes because we had a lot of ingredients! It was my first ever in my life making the cake! I love it :D:D

Shu Chin :)

Hemamali :D

CHOCOLATE CAKES! :):) YUMS :D

Yumms?

So on Wednesday during the reading week, we got to go to Edinburgh to see Royal College of Physicians and Royal College of Surgeons, Edinburgh. It was really an eye-opener, and I really did enjoy the trip! :):) I snap lots of photos, but still not snapping nice photos of myself! Maybe I'm putting on too much weight already :(:( So anyway, photos of the day :D

Dawnn :)

Loving this photo although I looked like crap and Noura's eyes are shut :(:(

JUNE :D

JOANNA. :D

Our yummy lunch that costed us 6pounds each! It was pretty good and the portions were pretty big.

I love this motto for the Royal College of Surgeon, Edinburgh because it has so much meaning in it! It's really amazing. Sad how I forgot to take photo of what each thing symbolizes. It's truly amazing!

More photobooth photos of us on Tuesday night! Haha :):) It was a pretty long and stressful week for everyone in IFM because we had to do the stupid obesity essay which I really dread doing and I handed in one day late. Hahaha, crap, but oh well, it wasn't graded, so I didn't really put in my 100% effort. Whoops. Hahaha.

There are more photos soon! I still haven't uploaded photos of us and Shuk Yee! :):) I really like how we could totally just hang out together :):) But I really miss hanging out with Natasha too! :( I really hope the 4 of us can stick as close as possible in the near future. But hopes will be hopes, and to become a reality, efforts must be put in.

Can you feel that love?

Forget me not

2011-11-08T17:56:00.000Z

Random photos that I took on my mac! Hehe :):) I apologize for the lack of update. I am so exhausted from work and I'm not use to the short-days long-night thing yet and thus I get really really sleepy at like 9pm because I would think it is already 12midnight. It's pretty crazy, but I will get use to it. Will blog more regulary, I promise. :) Went to dundee with the girls last weekend. Photos soon :D Love you guys.
Keep calm and eat a cupcake

I miss you

2011-10-31T01:19:00.002Z

Where are you and I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime

And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders

catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you

And hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight

Stop this pain tonight

I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning

2011-10-30T22:18:00.000Z

Turn back time. Turn back the time. Turn back the time please. No more tears. No more fucking tears. Throbbing head. Throbbing and dizzy. Pain. Pain all over. Inside and out. Don't have the rights to comment when the full picture is not out. I miss you. I miss you so badly. Pull it together. Pull it together for us. I wear a smile to hide the tears. You can do this.

You know you don't belong

2011-10-29T23:59:00.000+01:00

Lonely. Desperate. Emotional. Regretful. Words that still can't describe the feelings. Never solving the problem but instead, making it worst. Naive or pure brainless? Dependent or independent? Tears stream down your face. When you lose something you can't replace. When you feel so useless and hopeless. When you feel there's no one to turn to. When you feel insecure. When you feel everything that you are not. You know I can't take one more step towards you, because all that's waiting is regret. But I have grown too strong, to ever fall back in your arms. Independent. Motivated. Aim. And lastly, "An honest slap is better than a false kiss".

Only silence as it's ending

2011-10-24T23:22:00.000+01:00

It was a pretty crazy and tiring week last week because of the crazy presentation that we had on Friday! I'm so glad it's all over, had a drink with the usual people to relieve the stress. Hahaha! And the weekend has passed so quickly! Anyway, lots of photos!! :):) I've finally started using my camera on a 'daily' basis. Hahaha :):) Let the photos do the talking, and yes, I'm still a camwhore :D

My crazy project work!! I'm so glad it's finally over. Don't you think this looks like primary school?!?! Hahahaha! I'm such a kid!

I really love the scarf and beanie that extremes got for me! I'm wearing them almost everyday now! Hahaha! I never knew the wonders of scarf and beanie! Hahaha :):)

This is what I wore for my formal presentation! Don't I look so formal?!?! Hahaha! It's totally not me, but I guess I'm growing up! I tried to make my hair neat by wearing a little bow headband (I even wore black so it's not so obvious) and people still say I look like a kid. GOSH PEOPLE, I'm trying to act like a pro here! Hahaha! Give me some credits!!

And yeah! Friday nights with Terry, Dawnn and my sister! :):)

This crazy bunch of people who got so wasted at 3.30am and started banging on my room door to wake me up! It was super funny and they were so apologetic for it the next morning. Hahaha.

Kang! :):) She's korean and she's 20 this year! She's UBER TALL.

Dawnn and me chilling out at the pub! :):)

It was pink shades night and the LOVE ring. Hahahaha!

And we went to eat toastie bar!! $0.50pounds for a toast bread! HAM & CHEESE! YUMS! :):) Nothing can get anything cheaper than this! I'm so going to eat this every Friday night! Hahahaha!

Saturday night was STEAMBOAT NIGHHHTTTTT :):) IT WAS AMAZING! I'm so going to buy more lamb to eat! It is AMAZING and was so full! Hahahaha! :):)

YUMMY STEAMBOAT! :):)

My poor Geetha was homesick today and didn't eat dinner! So she came over for the Yen's cooking! Hahaha, it was a pretty crappy dinner because I didn't had much to whip up, but I'm glad she finished her whole food! :):) No worries geetha, I was as homesick as you :):)

Geetha and her yummy meal made by my sister and me! :):) Rice with fishballs, cuttlefish balls, fish tofu and crabstick! :):) Hot yummy milo and grapes! Hehehe :):) I hope she's feeling so much better now. Love you geets! We will always be here for you :):)

Say she's a cheat.

The things we do in life

2011-10-23T16:45:00.001+01:00

So once again, I'm back to where I was, wanting the playground so badly. Going there just to forget everything. My miracle playground. The one and only who can solve all my problems. Not using the mind to think for even a split second, sacrificing oneself to get hurt and the outcome is still the same. I'm lost without you. Trapped. Insecure. Afraid. Imagination running wild. Confused. Lost. Regret. Unknown. Giving the excuse that one misses. I'm back to where I was, 8 years ago. I just went back in 1 second. That is how fast. But stay strong, for yourself because there is no one who can help but yourself. Harden up. Don't waver. Be who you always are - that happy go lucky girl. Blabberish.

Tears stream down on your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

You're turning heads when you walk through the door

2011-10-18T00:15:00.000+01:00

Being the way that you are is enough

Hey! I'm blogging now because I'm pretty happy by the fact that I've finished all my homework that was given out last week! :):) After 3 weeks of school, I've finally not have this crazy burning-mid-night-oil-to-do-homework night. Hahaha! :):) But well, it's pretty late still. Hahaha! Anyway, today weather was crazy. Heavy rain, strong wind and it is 5 degrees!! And guess what, I had no umbrella nor a hoodie to protect my hair nor a pocket to keep my hands from freezing. I had to walk 4 times (to and fro) from my accommodation to school which is 20mins long! I seriously froze on the way. I think I had brain freeze because I kept having headaches!

Anyway, I just want to upload old photos that I didn't upload for so long because I was... busy? You can say that. Hahaha. These are photos from the last day that I was in Singapore. Time flies! It has been more than a month since I left Singapore! Wow! Anyway, let the pictures do the talking :)

My little niece! I miss her so much!! It's really sad how it's so hard to skype with her because of my school timings and her sleep timings :( I really hope she remembers me

My little doggies! Although snowball is out of the picture and princess and magic aren't in the picture! But I loveeeee lucky so much! :):) Hehehe. I miss my fluffdogs :(:( I see the dogs here and I go awwwww :(:(

Extremes that sent us off that day! It was super sweet of them to go to the airport like 2hours before I do and eat dinner there! We took lots of poloroids and I have them up on my wall! :):) Thanks to those who came :D Loves!

Jasmine :D:D

YAANMENG and ALBAN! Oh oh! Today is alban's birthday! Actually, yesterday but still! Happy sweet 19th alban! :D:D It was so touching that they came because they both have army the next day :D

Yan Xiu! :D:D

Jing Ling!

Sherman and Jackboon! Sorry to Jackboon's friend whom I don't know his name.

JASMINE GAVE THIS TO USSSS! It's on my study table now, unopened because I couldn't open it. Hahaha! I was so annoyed because I can't open it! :(:(

BOOBOOCAKES :D:D Miss him like mad! We've been skyping almost everyday ever since I came here! Hahaha, it's our only way of contacting each other because I have yet to get a bb or iphone to use bbm or whatsapp. Hahaha :P Whoops?

And the final picture of 3 of us together with our stupidly retarded short bangs! Hahahaha! :):) Okay, that's all for tonight. I've got a long day tomorrow! :):) See you guys soon. Love dulcy.

Don't need make-up to cover up

My new tiny place I called home

2011-10-16T00:46:00.000+01:00

So hello! I have finally packed my room nicely, vacuumed the floor and arranged my clothes nicely to take some photos! And please, photos are deceiving. Although it might look big, my room isn't actually very big, it's just very very empty. Hahahaha! You haven't seen other's people room where they have shelves and all! So here you go! PHOTOS OF MY ROOM! :):)

So this is my wardrobe. It's pathetic and small. Because I do not have a bookshelf to put my books, bags, accessories, I got to use my wardrobe shelves to put them. And yeah, I don't have a lot of clothing. It has only been 4 week since I'm here and I have wore ALL of my clothing at least 4 times already. PRETTY Crazy.

This is how my room looks when you enter the room, after you pass the toilet on the left. FYI, the curtains are disgustingly ugly. Hahaha! One of my friends changed her curtains to hot pink!! IT'S SUPER PRETTYYYY :):)

And yes, finally I have a bed that is bigger than single. Hahaha! A double single bed for me! And so much lesser toys on my bed right now :(:( Very sad. AND NO BOLSTER.

My study table! :):)

My pathetic toilet. :(:( That's the saddest part of my entire room. Hahaha, but at least I have my own toilet!!

And yes. Me and my sister decided to leave our shoes outside because we didn't want to dirty our rooms with our shoes, so we walk around in our room barefooted and leaves all our shoes outside. NO ONE DARES TO STEAL IT OR ELSE. Hahaha! It's pretty good because I stay right at the end of the hallway, the door on the left is to the kitchen, and the 'door' (it's not a door) on the right is where the sounds of the flushing of the toilet bowl comes out from. I have no clue too. Hahaha!

So this is how my corridor looks like. The opened door on the right is the entrance to my room, and so that tiny little corner is my 'walk-in' shoe area. Hahahaha! And on the left is the kitchen. And yes, everyone in my flat can see my shoes.

So this is how my corridor looks like from the corner of the 'walk-in' shoe area. Hahaha! You can see desi's slippers outside her room door, that's how far she lives from me. Hahaha! And yes, I vacuum the corridors once a week, and it is super dirty! I think I'm the only one who vacuums the corridor. My flat mates MUST BE thankful for having a clean freak like me to be their flatmate.

So another angle of my wardrobe! The door is the entrance/exit of the room. So whenever I open my door, my wardrobe gets blocked. It's pretty annoying at times. Hahaha :):)

Another angle of my study table! :):)

And more random stuffs that I organize on my wardrobe shevles! Hehehe :):) Okay! So that's roughly how my rooms looks like! It's not that bad an accommodation, but just that it is a 20mins walk to school everyday, and a 30mins walk to town. That's the only bad thing, other than that... I'm pretty alright with this place! :):)

Will update more soon! And about the crazy match I had today, which landed me in the hospital to check out my condition. Hahaha! :):) Anxiety! :D Bye and goodnight for now :)

Words are just words anyway

2011-10-10T19:43:00.000+01:00

That is my poster in my room :)

Hey! So week 2 has passed! The start of week 3 is here! 9 weeks more till holidays!! Hahaha, I'm such a lousy student, I just count down the weeks/days to holidays! Hahaha :):) Anyway last week was pretty busy. Well....... Yeah, just see. HAHA :):) Finally uploading the photos that I took over the weeks! So yeah! :):) Some photos are VERY VERY overdued.

Week 2's potluck dinner with floor mates. And there were 15 of us in that tiny kitchen!

That was pretty much how much food there was. I'm not going to comment anything about the food except mine! :):)

This was my dish!! :):) Broccoli with seafood in oyster sauce. IT WAS HEAVEN.

A new dish that the kuwat girls introduced to us. IT WAS THE BEST THING EVER!! It's some cheese! If you pronounce it, it is called har-lu-me! SUPERB! Pan fry it! :):) I kept eating it for the past few weeks, maybe that's why I'm growing so fat now :(

Okay so desi and I entered the school netball team! I'm not in the same team as her. I'm in the lousier team. Hur hur.. Anyway, there was this netball event that was meant for the freshers (me!) so we went and the theme was Teddy BEAR! :):) Crazy night of alcohol and burnt a hole in my pocket!! I seriously wonder how they can party everyday! Anyway, since St Andrews is so small. There is only 1 small club and the rest were pubs. Mehs. We left for home at 11pm. Haha.

Okay! So that was pretty much my weekdays, other than school! So the weekend came. Shukyee left for London and Natasha went to DUNDEE! So we had no one to eat dinner with. Well actually we could eat with Natasha, but I left my phone in the room and didn't see her message :( SORRY! Anyway, we had dinner with Terry and Dawnn! :):) They had dried shrimps and ikan bilis!!! I totally didn't bring it here when I was coming up! OH GOODNESS. Our dinner had wine (terry brought nice wine!), bat kut teh (which was really bad because desi and I cooked it wrongly), curry chicken, taogei fried with dried shrimps and ikan bilis and egg omelette!! :):) Super yums!

Later we went out to have a drink with June and Mei Kuei! :):) It was so weird because when desi, terry and I were ordering the drinks, within that 5mins a lady fell on me and I dropped my phone and also some guy dropped his glass on the floor and the glass pieces hit my legs! SO SCARY! Hahaha. But it was a pretty nice chat with them. Ate supper and came back to rest!

Sunday was pretty alright! Started to do my homeworks, Terry and Dawnn came over to make strawberry crumble!! :):) It's quite good! :):) Had a nice chat with them and that's how I ended my day! :):)

The strawberry crumble that Terry and Dawnn made! :):) Quite yummy, just that I can't eat it together with ice cream like that do. I feel that it doesn't blend in. Hahaha! :):)

& this is terry and dawnn! They are like super pro cooks! :):) Enjoyed the weekend with them! :):)

Today school was pretty alright. Had lectures and homework again, but I did my homework in lecture, so I guess I don't have homework. HAHA! :):) had lunch with jay at his kitchen! Super yummy thai tomyam instant noodles and bread with cheese! LOVE THAT! :):) Went for biology lab which we had to do microscope, and microscope experiments means drawing.. Bleahs...

Came home after school and guess what I saw at my room door!!!!

OUR IB NOTES ARE FINALLY HERE!! :):) Desi looks so chui in the photo because she was semi-sleeping already. Hahahaha! And yes, it is super expensive!! $170 to ship it here! Took the parcel 6days to arrive here!! Hahaha! Yes, I'm so happy with my notes now! I don't feel lost anymore! :):)

Okay, that's all for today! I got to go do some work because my homework piles up again! :):) Good bye!

A short knife for a short life

Give me everything tonight

2011-10-02T17:21:00.000+01:00

Week 1 of school has finally pass. It's finally the weekend, and the weekend is ending again. Well, I survived the first week of school! It's a pretty slack week this week. Lessons has been introduction to the modules, 'how to motivate yourself', 'how to listen well', 'how to write well' and so many other random stuffs. I am seriously bored of school already.

I can't wait for my notes to be delivered to me. The textbooks are really horrible. Like it's all over the place, that's what I feel. And I dislike how the teachers/lecturers uses moodle and mms to give us work and all. And that saintmail. Like, there are so many places on the st andrews website that you get homework/notes/more information for the course. Like why can't they just have 1 - moodle, or the email. Everything is all over the place and I feel it's so unorganized. Maybe I'm just not used to the system yet.

Anyway, had netball trials on Wednesday and Thursday and my sister and I got into the team! Desi got into the 2nd team and won her first match yesterday and I got into the 3rd team and lost my first match. Hur hur. And yes, desi was the man of the match, so proud of her :) And me being the opposite, injured my ankle, again. Not going to comment much about the game play but I just miss the way extremes play, or even clique plays, or even acs play. Maybe because I'm in a different country and they play differently.

I guess I'm still not really use to a change in culture and change in place. But I will be, some day. My room is pretty clean now, I've vacuumed my room, my corridors, my kitchen and scrubbed my toilet today. Today is like CLEANING DAY. My room is so clean now that I walk bare-footed in the room and I leave my shoes outside along the corridors so that I do not dirty my room. Hahaha, good idea yeah? But whoever steals my shoes, you're dead. Hahaha :):)

Okay, I had a great dinner with ShukYee, my sister and Natasha last night. I really love it how we could just talk anything under the stars. Maybe I'm more comfortable with people my age and comes from my hometown. I never knew that was a big problem, I always thought I could talk and be close to anyone. Well, I've learnt another thing about myself :)

So, I will try to post less informally and more formally from now onwards to start training myself to type/write properly because my English is really really horrible. For now, goodbye :)

This is harder than I'm feeling

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing

2011-09-28T19:55:00.000+01:00

Hey! :):) So I'm finally settled down into my hostel. There is something that I got to say about here. Yes there is no fan because it's already so cold and there's central heating, this means that the ROOM IS SO STUFFY. Like there is no ventilation of air! It annoys me, even if I open my window, I still think it's not working. Oh gosh, but I got to get use to it because the lecture theaters, classes, ANYWHERE indoors is exactly the same. SO STUFFY. Oh goodness.

Anyway, I haven't been taking out my camera to snap photos yet! I am so sorry. I don't want to take photo of my room yet because it's so messy and embarrassing. Hahahaha! This weekend, when I clean my room, wash my sheets and change into new ones, I will take a photo of it then! Hahaha! I'm pretty happy that I got a double-single bed! I can finally roll around now! Hahaha :):) My hostel is so far away from town and my classes. It takes me about 15mins to school everyday (if I walk fast) and about 25mins to school everyday (if I walk at normal pace). Don't even talk about walking to town, it's crazy far. It is like 35mins walk (if I walk at normal pace). Well, there are pros to the distance - I CAN LOSE WEIGHT BY WALKING. Hahaha :):)

Lectures have been pretty annoying, maybe because I'm not use to studying in lectures but in classes. The lecture tables are the smallest table ever. The only thing I can put on the table is my foolscap paper and one pen. I can't even put my pencil case on the table. And when I put my calculator on my table, it drops on the ground. The worst thing is, I have lectures back-to-back, means I got to sit on the same seat without moving for 2hours. Oh gosh, seriously, my ass is SOOO pain. Sighs. And it's every single day :(

I really need my sister to send my magical bio and chem file over from Singapore as soon as possible. I'm dying in lectures without notes. I need to have notes, but I'm pretty lazy to copy down whatever is on the powerpoint slide. :( And the weirdest thing about the lectures is, during biology lecture, the lecturer is teaching us chemistry and during chemistry lecture, the lecturer is teaching us physics. What nonsense right? I'm definitely not in the wrong class. I guess I'm just not used to the way they study here :( And it is not good.

Away, studies aside. I just had netball trials today! There are like 80people trying out for the squad! And there's only 36 in a squad! Pretty crazy yeah? They said that they will email those who made it through the 2nd trials which is tomorrow, but when I talked to the captain of the team, she said "See you tomorrow." SO AM I IN "ROUND 2"?? But I haven't received any email yet. I'M JUST GOING TOMORROW. Hahaha! And yes, I have been rambling on twitter and plurk about my height during the trials. I am seriously a dwarf!!! Oh goodness :( But let's see how things go!

Okay, I think I have ranted enough about my school here. Hahaha, I'm just not used to everything yet, give me about a month to get used to the things here. AND YES, the catered food - yeah, as usual, catered food are never nice. Hahaha. I realized that they eat SO MUCH CARBSSSSS. It's pretty crazy, I think I'm going to put on weight because everything is carbs! Please be honest with me if I have put on weight, TELL ME. hahaha :):)

Okay, this post is pretty long and rant-y. Hahaha :):) See you guys soon! :):) For not taking photos, I shall show you my camwhore photo. HAHA. Okay! BYE :):) Sending love from Scotland :)

Extremes

2011-09-26T21:51:00.000+01:00

So hey! This post is really just about extremes and how I've spent my last few days/weeks with extremes. I remember the day where my sisters and I were saying "It will be our dream to get into llabten or extremes" and hey, dreams do come true with luck and opportunities. I was so thankful that we could join extremes and was so excited about it!

I know I'm not up to the standards of the team. I remembered having the first few trainings on Fridays and I was literally dying on the ground. I couldn't get up because I was exhausted and I felt like puking and all, but none of them gave up on me! Like they cheered me on and did not look down on me or any sort of negative things! I was pretty surprised actually and happy at the same time.

Although we didn't train and play much with them, trainings with them were pretty awesome. I really learnt quite a few things from extremes and seriously, it was great. I felt so proud to wear the extremes training shirt that after training with the shirt on, when we reached home, we took a photo of it! Hahaha, we are pretty gay. :)

So you can say it's our farewell and we invited them over. It was great having them over, chatting and laughing with them like we all our close friends for years. So here are the pictures for our farewell, or saying in a nice way - extremes get-together :)

We baked cupcakes for everyone that was coming! It was pretty crappy. Hahaha, we're not good at baking, but we just like to bake.

Thank you for those who came. And those who didn't make it, IMMA EAT YOU. Just kidding, I still think about you guys :)

Coach Chon Tee. She was the one that made our dreams came through. :) It was pretty much luck for us too. Hahaha :):)

Fanglin

BeeHsing

Stella

Jia Min

Jasmine a.k.a xiaoniu

Yan Xiu

Dorothy

Ka Yan

Jinglin

Audrey

Fang Ching

Qian Yi

Bernice

Yu Zhen

Darissa

Big Xing Hui

Small Xing Hui!

Hopefully the vandalism is still on my wardrobe board when I get home :):)

Presents that they got for us! And also the scarf and beanie! But I didn't take a photo for it, maybe during winter here, I will wear it and show you guys! It's pretty cute! :):) I can't wait to wear it! :D:D

So after the get-together dinner. We had match the next day! Well, it's a pretty small carnival but at least I get to play with them for 1 'tournament'. It was a charity carnival and there were a total of 8teams? I think. I'm not very sure and may have forgotten already. Hahaha!

So yes, it started at 3pm and it ended about 8pm! And guess what? We got first!! Well, my sisters and I were so happy that finally, after 4years of always being second for every single thing, we broke that stupid curse and got first! We were so happy. Well, it's not really our efforts because extremes is a very good team indeed and we're just starting to pick up skills from them. It was a very happy event for the 3 of us. And since it was charity, extremes decided to give the money that extremes won to the charity! :):)

So ENL starts and we got to watch 2 matches! It was really exciting to see how a div 2 club plays in the national league. It was AMAZING.

And since one of the matches fell on Mid-autumn festival, we decided to bring some mooncakes and fire sparkles to play with after their match (WHICH THEY WON!) It was really fun to play sparkles with them! Even coach chon tee played! Hahaha :):) Amazing time together, I can't stress how much fun I had.

Well, extremes has been part of my life. It was sad to just leave in such short notice and spending such a short period of time together. But every second together spend was worth it. Thank you extremes. Good night and good luck for the remaining matches for ENL. :)

Nothing but the best

2011-09-24T22:35:00.000+01:00

Okay! So hello! I haven't been blogging for very very long and yes, I am very very lazy to do it too because of all the stuffs I got to do here. Well, there's seriously nothing much to do here. Just cleaning up my room, trying to make my room clean and nice. Hahaha! So let the pictures do the talking as I am about to start school soon! Will update more about school the next few posts. For now, photos before I left for UK.

Met up with the girls before I left. Ate sake sushi with them. I miss them so much now. And asian food. Hahaha! So photos! :):)

Group photo with the girls! :):)

Elaine

Clara

Yuan Ning

Jovita

XinYing

SiYan

So there's the photos for the lunch with the girls! :):) And next up is korean BBQ for dinner! YUMS! :):) Makes me miss home now and crave for good asian food. URGHS :(

And my brother turned 21 on 8th September! He requested dad's cooking and there we have it! A GREAT DINNER! :):)

Okay, that's all for now. I'm pretty tired after a long day today. Catch up soon. Miss you guys.

Saints

2011-09-18T22:24:00.001+01:00

Hey! I haven't been blogging for quite some time. Pretty crazy weeks! I'm finally starting to settle down into my room, buying all my things that I need. Tomorrow is the start of freshers week! Hopefully I get to meet new friends and not be a loner in school. Hahaha. It's quite weird to be a minority now. Well, it's a new change, new life, new faces, new obstacles, but hopefully I can go through this :):) My aim, my dream.

I will try my best to blog what happen before I left and after I left for UK! So be patient! :D:D Once I settle down and get use to the changes here! :):) For now... Miss me! :D:D BYE :D FYI, the timings of my previous posts have all changed because I've changed my timezone to UK, so everything is 7hours behind SG! Hehehe :):)

A new beginning

2011-09-14T15:27:00.001+01:00

Hey all!

I'm at the airport now! Using the free internet that the airport have! Haven't been blogging for days, and I'm leaving Singapore in less than 1hour to UK. Quite happy to start school next week! I will blog more when I settle down there :)

P.S. I love you,
Dulcena

The days will never end

2011-09-05T10:38:00.000+01:00

Hey! Okay, I've just broke my promise by trying to blog once in a few days! Hahaha, but it's okay! I've got pictures! :):) So 1 week (more than that now) has passed and a few days more till I'm leaving Singapore! Haven't done any packing yet though :P

So firstly, the weekend before this (27th August), Vidette held her farewell at her place as she was leaving on the 31st of August!! So as I am posting this, she is already in GLASGOW! :D Hope she isn't really freezing there, if not I'll be frozen in St. Andrews! Anyway, Vidette's house is SO AMAZING. I love her attic the most! I didn't take pictures of it because I was so fascinated by her house! It's AMAZING.

This was on Vidette's toilet door! ITS SO COOL AND FUNNY. Hahahaha! Love it.

I simply love this sofa that Vidette has!

So that's pretty much how my weekend ended! Couldn't really bother about the president election because I can't vote and anyway everyone knows who's going to be the next one anyway. PRESIDENT TAN. Lols. Okay, enough with the lame jokes. Oh oh! had dinner with boyfriend and his friends at Holland Village on Sunday night! Saw 2 little puppies that were SIMPLY ADORABLE! It was difficult to take a photo of them because they were super hyper and it was dark!

So Monday was a holiday because of the election on Saturday, so I went out with bf! :):) We went to East Coast Park to cycle, play bowling, stroll along the beach and eat yummy korean food! :D Both of us wished we had personal photographers so that we don't have to take photos on our own! It was PRETTY hard to take a photo and cycle at the same time!! Hahaha! Anyway, Monday was a pretty rainy day, we kept getting drenched, then dry, then drenched again. Hahaha!

This is me riding the bicycle and trying to take a photo! I almost lost my balance!! Hahaha, and still didn't manage to take a photo of us together riding! Hahahaha!

So I gave up and finally just try to take it sideways. Hahaha! It was pretty difficult too! And we did it in a few attempts. I risked my life!! Hahahaha

BOWLING! :):) We played 3 games! We were super annoyed with the bunch of Indian teens that were playing beside us. Simply so RUDE. I'm not being racist but they are really rude and almost spoilt my day. Luckily they played for a short while and left. Anyway, brina won 2 games and I won 1! Hahaha :):)

KOREAN BBQ at east coast! It is a MUST TRY because it is the best ever!! My boyfriend ate 2 bowls of rice! We shared 2 portions of pork collar and steam egg! SUPER YUMMY! And I love the side dishes - kimchi, tofu, seaweed soup, ikan billis! Oh gosh, I'm craving for Korean BBQ again! :D So anyway, that's how my Monday ended! By the time we reached home, our legs were aching from cycling and we were so drained, so we fell asleep. Hahahaha!

The week passed pretty fast, forgetting most of the stuffs that I did. I remembered that I sent my little niece to her class via MRT, teaching my maid at the same time. She was super funny and adorable :D

Also, last week was my last week of tuition! So I'm officially jobless and going back to a full-time student! :) Went out for lunch with Matthew on Friday because he owe me a meal And also, my sister and I baked for extremes on Friday! Our cupcakes were pretty burnt because we were busy trying to get the icing, but it was crappy. Hahaha! :):)

On Saturday, we had lunch with Alban and Julian at plaza sing! Hahaha. We ate crystal jade for lunch and finally meeting alban ever since exams ended! Hahaha :D:D

After lunch, we walked around plaza sing to kill them and then we headed to Dale's place as our ex-team CLIQUE arranged a farewell dinner for us. So sweet! :D:D Anyway, we had fun and yes we did put on lots of weight because of the indian poker that we played. The penalty is to eat 1 cup of yellow rice (the amount of rice depends on the last loser). I ate like 6 full cups of rice, I was actually dying by the end of the game!! Hahaha.

I'm always very nice to put less than half a cup!! But evil people put full cup, and even COMPRESS IT!

After the farewell, we went up to Dale's place to watch the recorded version of WNC 2011 finals where Australia vs New Zealand! :D:D Then later I went home around 11.30pm because my boyfriend was going to stay over the night before! :D

I got home around 11.50pm!! Phew I wasn't late to reach home! He was suppose to come over before 12midnight! And by 11.57pm, he still haven't called yet! And I was starting to get upset!! When I came home, I smelt something burning, but I was so lazy to find out where it was, I straight away went to use my computer. And at 11.57pm, I wanted to give him a call and wash up. And when I entered my room, I saw this!

And he was sitting by the side of the candles! HAHA! I was so shocked! Then I went "THERE'S WHERE THE SMELL CAME FROM" Hahaha. He's the best bf ever! :D:D

So we talked for awhile and then we fell asleep! :):) The next morning (which is yesterday), we went to have breakfast with family. Then we went home to bathe and get ready to go out! :D:D We took a train to Kallang Leisure Park to ICE SKATE!! I haven't ice skate for the longest time! Hahaha :D:D Pretty EXCITED about it! :):) And once again, we wanted our personal photographer to take photos of us ice skating!

After ice skating, we wanted to go bowling but we had to wait for 1hour to get a lane! GOSH! It was so long! So we decided to chill at starbucks and walk around the mall. AND I FOUND MR DUCKY IN A BIGGER VERSION! He bought for me at impulse! Hahaha! Super cute! I love it! :D

We were unable to kill lots of time, so we went home, dump everything down, take our jackets and left for NEX to have dinner at Jack's Place! I haven't eaten there since primary school and my boyfriend haven't even there at all before!! I love Jack's place a lot! :D:D The sneaky little boyfriend said he went to the toilet before the food came, and he went for over 10mins! But he came back with ROSESSSSS!! :):) My favourite Hehehehe! :):)

After dinner, we went to see the pet store, he's deciding if he should get a pet hamster! Hahaha :):) Then we went to watch SMURFFFFFFF!! It was super cute lahh! Love the theme song! Hahahahah! :):) So that's pretty much how my week ended! :):) Loved this week a lot! Have been spending quality time with bf :D:D

Selfish desires kills.

The last few moments

2011-08-25T17:29:00.000+01:00

I miss you more than anything

Hey! Sorry for the super slack of update. I was really really not in the mood to blog, even now, so I'm just going to show you some pictures that I took during the past 1 week :):) Events are totally not in order because I'm lazy and bored to try to put them in order. Bear with me for this week. Hahaha. Okay so firstly! We met up with Chang Siying after SOOOOOOOO long! We went to eat Nandos at Bugis. It was the most disappointing lunch ever! Nandos in UK is the bomb, SG one is really horrible.

Next up! University of St. Andrews BBQ that was organized for us! My sisters and I were the only losers from the freshers that is taking Foundation Medicine. But whatever! It was pretty alright.. Some people were friendly, some weren't just my type of friends. But hey, everyone has their own personalities!

Went for the UK bound clubbing event that was named RISQUE. Created by a student from University of Nottingham. NOOO, my 2nd dream school, but it's okay. Went with my brother, Shuk Yee, Natasha (new friend I met from the St. Andies BBQ), sisters, Sheena and XinQuan. We drank at home before heading down. And we had a free shot, so yeah. I was pretty much still sober the entire night. :)

Okay next! SUPER YUMMY CHING CHEONG FAN was sent to our house by my mum's friend! We were suppose to have CHING CHEONG FAN party with her 'gang', but everyone had their own schedule and it was difficult to have everyone free on the same day and timing! This is the BEST CHING CHEONG FAN I've ever eaten. Oh gosh, now that I'm blogging about it, I'm craving for one so badly.... It was sent to us on Monday evening, and by Tuesday night, it was all gone. This is how good it is!!

Okay! Lastly (for this post), look who finally got a birkin from HERMES! My mum ordered this 2 years ago, and finally it is here!! There was a choice of this colour and the original gold colour, but this colour was so much nicer!! :):) My mum, at age 55, finally got her birkin :):) It's something that you should have it on your to-buy list, and now my mum can tick it off!! Wanna know what is on my to-buy list for now? There's 2 items that I can think of now - balenciga bag (pink) and louboutin heels!! Hahaha :):)

Okay! So once again, I'm sorry for the lack of update and the poor quality of the post. I will try my best to blog once every 2 days? :):) TRY ONLY. Hehehe :):) More photos coming up! Seeya betchs :):)

At times, being independent kills

Tik tock goes the clock

2011-08-18T16:44:00.000+01:00

Time is running out

Hey! Sorry haven't been blogging for the longest time! I fell sick on Friday night till Sunday. I'm guessing I had food poisoning from the food I ate on Friday :( Vomited a couple of times and had the runs like a million times! :( But I got better on my own because I know how to take care of myself! Hahaha. For real, I drank lots of water! I had no appetite to eat for that 2 days :(:(

Spent most of my Sunday at the flea market at scape! I must say, it was an experience! Check out what Desi got to say about the flea on Sunday on our Triplets' blog :):) We didn't earn a lot from the flea because firstly there wasn't any human traffic, the clothes we sold was super cheap $2/clothing and the rent is SUPER EXPENSIVE. So all profits went to my mum :):)

Monday has been a pretty slack day where I just sit in front of my laptop and play stupid games on facebook. Please don't judge me for it. Hahaha. :):) Went to meet boyfriend at Ion after his army! Forgot to bring my camera, so we didn't take any photos :(:( Went to change my heels that I bought from far east as there are some scratches and stuffs on it! Went to eat our favourite food from ion basement later! Gyoza and ToriQ! Yum yum! :D:D Went to buy our 3D jigsaw puzzle later! :D:D Bought the pink heart this time round!

This is my end product! Brina made the teddy bear for me when I was overseas that time! And he bought the red heart so we made it together! I was a beginner at that time, so it took me 4 hours to finish that!! And this time I finished my pink heart in 20mins! Hahaha! I became THE PRO. :D:D So let me tell you how I did it!

Step 1: POUR EVERYTHING out from the box onto the table (duh)

Step 2: From my experience with the red heart, I realized that the heart is symmetrical, so I paired up the parts that are the same! And it'll be SUPER EASY to do from there already! :D:D I didn't even use the guiding paper that they gave :D

Finished product! TADA!!! I love the pink heart ALOT! The pink is super cute and it is a heart shape! I am so going to bring this overseas and put it on my desk! :D:D Super cute :):) What a matching pair with the red right? :D

Yup yup! Made tiramisu on Tuesday night! Krystle came over to 'supervise' us and chit chat for awhile! Finally our tiramisu, after 3 times, WAS A SUCCESS!! I was so happy :):) And it was SURE DO YUMMY! :):) I can totally open a tiramisu shop now, HAHA. Who am I kidding.

Qihui came over yesterday to return our disc and also to catch up with us! We played with our niece and our niece was so shy in front of qihui!! She didn't dare to go near qihui at all! EXCEPTION: when Qi Hui has food in her hands and when 3 of us scare her, so she will run towards the person who seems the least harmful - Qihui. Hahahaha! :):) Qihui gave us super cute bears that is wearing a surgeon outfit!! It was the cutest bear I've ever seen!! I need to take a photo of it and upload it here! :):) It will be my motivation :):) Thank you qi!!

Today has been a pretty alright day, not going to go into details as it is pretty standard. Hahaha :):) Can't wait for tomorrow! Meeting up with Siying and TRAINING LATER! :):) Can't wait to train although I'm really unfit and 'noob' (I don't know what other terms to use) Good night :):)

Blah.

Empty

2011-08-12T15:20:00.000+01:00

It's a Friday night and I'm bored at home with my sisters! :( Sad that training was cancelled last minute, I was looking forward to it! But it's okay :):) So, I've completed 1 thing off my list - Doing my VISA. Oh goodness, we booked an appointment on Thursday to do our VISA at 11.10am. We thought we had everything we need and we were pretty on time. Guess what happened? There were tons of people and booking an appointment is not as fast as walking-in and that we didn't know there's an online application thingy. OH GOODNESS.

The security guard is super funny. When we first entered through the doors, with the help of the guard opening the door for us, he asked us "How many of you?" and I replied with "Four of us." Then he replied saying "Oh okay, four of us?" Then I almost burst out laughing but replied him with "No, it's FOUR of us" pointing to my sisters and brother. HAHA. And after that I bursted out laughing. Okay, I'm not trying to be evil, but it's quite early in the morning and I wasn't in the best of mood because we had to come back another day (which is the next day, we didn't want to delay anything)

Anyway, the day was pretty boring that I can't seem to remember what I did other than walking to Krystle's house to return her egg beater and feeding my maids with alcohol. HAHAHA! Well, they liked alcohol and they told us how they 'sleep all day and party all night'. Hahahaha!

Alcohol for my maids! :D:D It was actually meant for us, but we dislike the taste. So we gave it to our maids, and they LOVED IT. No idea why too. Hahahaha! :D:D

Ate loop chup that my neighbour gave us when they went to bangkok for holiday! :):) Super yummy! :D:D I miss Thailand's tom yam kung, I wish I can go back again!! Hahaha :):)

Oh oh! Met bf for a movie yesterday night! We watched horrible bosses! It was pretty funny, yet perverted, but I can't blame the movie because it says M18. Hahahaha! Means MATURE 18, and I am. HAHA. Okay, I shall stop being a retard but yeah, the show was pretty alright but I prefered bridesmaid! :D Took some photos before the show starts! We were there pretty early! :D

So I went to bed about 1am because I was playing stupid games. Hahaha! My siblings and I were suppose to wake up at 6.30am and leave the house at 7.15am to apply for our VISA as we had finally applied online and printed out 7 pages per person! I think this VISA thing kills the trees! But whatever :):) Since I slept at 1am, I couldn't wake up at 6.30am and finally waking up at 7.30am when my brother barged into the room and shouted out the time to us.

Reached the VISA location at about 8.15am and there were already tons of people! We are no. 23-26! Oh gosh, but we didn't wait that long. But everything finished about 10am going to 11am? VISA costed a BOMB, $520 per person! Ouch. Ate breakfast came home and slack! After awhile, we went out with David since we haven't met in like 3 years?!?! Oh goodness!

Ate lunch at Mandarin Gallery! Ramen! It's pretty expensive!! The food is good, but I guess it wasn't worth the price! Hahaha, I still prefer ajisen ramen although people might say it's 'fake ramen', but it's worth the money and I love the noodles! :D:D Anyway, most of my photos are me wearing david's super huge jacket which I always steal it from him whenever I see him, even during school hours. Hahaha!

Saw this super pretty 'thing' at Mandarin Gallery. I guess I wasn't suppose to take a photo of it becuase the guy in the stall kept staring at me. HAHAHA! But I wanted the "L-O-V-E" thing as a bookstand like I saw it on tumblr! But this is pretty cute too! It has the exact same design! But just smaller and the fact that the "L-V" and "O-E" are the 2 stands! Hahahaha. Anyway, after lunch we walked over to paragon to eat dessert! Hahaha. We are fat, yes and thank you. Hahahaha!

Thanks david for adjusting your spectacles when we were taking a photo! Hahahha! He's like giant to me, super tall lah! And he's still growing! Oh goodness! Anyway, it was a fun afternoon with him although he kept disturbing me, and I retaliated with a few punches. HAHA :):)

So... That's pretty much my day! :):) See you around :D

Who do you think you are

2011-08-10T16:59:00.000+01:00

So here we are, in a blink, half the week has passed. Yesterday(tuesday), we had been preparing for this Sunday's flea to try to get rid of my old clothes that I can't wear anymore (because I grew in size, sad..) and some clothes that I got bored of (impulsive buying kills) and others that I can't bring overseas because if I do wear them there, I'll freeze to death! Most of our stuffs are priced $20 and below! Well, there are $2, $5, $10, $15 and $20! Most of the stuffs are $5 and $10! :D:D So do come down to SCAPE this Sunday from 2pm to 8pm! Thanks! :D:D

Tada! Some of the clothes that we hanged and priced already! Hopefully all is good on Sunday! Our goal is to try to sell more than half of the things there! :):) We did everything in about 3hours? I was perspiring like mad! Went to get a cool shower and met bf at town for late lunch and shopping for my birthday present! :D:D

Met him at ion, finally get to eat gyoza at basement!! I craved for it too long, I wonder how am I going to survive without gyoza :(:( And we shared yakotori! Yums! :):) Walked over to far east plaza and bought 2 heels that I fell in love with! It's super embarrassing to tell people my shoe size because it's retardedly huge, approximately size 39 to 41.

It's like Louboutin Inspired heels which I want them so badly! But yes, these photos doesn't do the heels justice! I really loved the hot pink one :D:D But it's slightly small for me, but I still bought it because I couldn't bear to not buy it! Hahahaha! I'll have to stretch it on my own, anyone knows how? Anyway, I have to thank my bf for buying these 2 heels for me! It's not cheap! $40 per pair of heels! :( But I loved it! :D:D Thank you! :D:D

Today has been pretty much a tuition day because I have 2 tuitions today! One at 12noon to 2pm and another at 6pm to 8pm! And yes, let's all congratulate Daffy for passing her driving test! :D:D Desi and Daffy both of exactly 18points on the dot!! Hahaha! But a pass is a still a pass! :):) Okay, I got to go to bed soon! I've got to do my VISA application tomorrow, hopefully all is good :):) Some random photos that I took :):)

Oh oh! This is my new pair of netball shoes that I bought for myself as a reward for earning my own money and giving money to my parents every month! Although it's not a big sum of money, it's the thoughts that counts! :):) My birthday present to myself! :):) Okay, good night people, it's actually 12.30am, but I'm going to make this post at 11.59pm. Hahaha! Good night!

Running around leaving scars

The magic is lost

2011-08-07T17:46:00.000+01:00

Or was it never there?

Hey. Sorry for not updating my blog. And yes, my birthday just passed in a blink. Wow. I'm 19. The very first time I start remembering my birthday was when I was 15. BBQ with clique. Simply awesome. 16 - got my very first pink camera, played cute games at heartland mall, won the toy hammer. Got our very first oven to bake. 17 - got my very first t&c necklace, surprise birthday cake from friends, home-made brownies, dinner at ritz with family. 18 - surprise at home by friends, awesome day spent together.

I looked forward to every birthday, even to my 19th birthday with a positive mindset. The people I got to thank for this birthday, extremes, ONE, ex-sengkang players and the 3 most important people, the other 2 that is celebrating together with me - Daffy & Desi, we never once celebrated our birthday apart. And the last one is my boyfriend, who constantly tries to make my birthday a successful one. I love the cake so badly.

Although I was shy to celebrate it with the Extremes players, they still made it memorable :) And bf was clever enough not to listen to me to not celebrate it with the people who wants to celebrate with me.

Thank you to bf who planned all these out, gathering the people who wants to celebrate with us and at least gave me a feeling that it is my birthday and the limelight is on us :) Thank you to those who wished me at midnight, throughout the day, belated birthdays and everything.

Thank you to Shuk Yee who got me a very pretty necklace for my present and my bf who got the super pretty birthday cake and my present to come once I get my address in UK :) And also my little niece who gave me a stalk of rose. Thank you Jenna Goh Li Huan for the birthday cake you gave, I've not eaten it yet. HAHA. And Thank you to my neighbour who never fails to remember my birthday and for the delicious looking cake :) And thank you to myself for getting myself a new netball shoes to use when I go overseas! :)

So that somehow sums up the Friday night till midnight for my birthday :) Netballuxion the next day, which I wanted to play so badly, but still ended up not playing. Went to cheer on them and they played superbly well :) How I wish I could spend my birthday playing netball, that would be awesome, but it's okay.

I think I've got every right to feel this way. How badly I try not to, but there will still be a feeling of disappointment that I didn't use this special day wisely. It comes once a year, and I've wasted it away, do I want it? But as what others say, after awhile, it's just an ordinary day. I guess I'm starting to get use to it already? :) Good night.

When you are at your lowest, you should be optimistic because nothing can get worst than that.

I'll miss you more than anything

2011-08-04T09:13:00.000+01:00

What time is it, where you are?

Hey! Just want to wish me and my boyfriend happy 3 years and 5months! :):) It's the second last time we can celebrate our anniversary/monthsary together! Our 3.5years will be our last one :( It's sad, but it's a whole new beginning for us and we will become stronger! I just want to say, I love you very very much and thank you for always being there for me! Although you might be annoying at times, but there's never once you've pushed me away :) Let's go on stronger :)

Anyway, this week has been a really mundane week for me! Oh oh! I got into pottermore! Yeah, I think that was the highlight of my week? Hahaha! I got into pottermore on day 3! :D My username is super super cute - NightUnicorn16! :D My sisters' choices weren't very nice, but oh well! :D

I'm growing fatter by the day. This week hasn't been very 'up-and-going' so I've been just sitting in my chair the entire day, eating all the junk food I can find. Gosh, I really need to control the amount of nonsense I'm eating! It's totally not healthy for me! :O

And oh yes, I've got something to announce. I've been holding this news for some time, but I didn't really want it to be really big because it isn't and at times I'm embarrassed by it. Yes, if some of you have heard, I've gotten into University of St. Andrews September 2011's intake! Yes, I am super happy by it because I don't have to take a gap year! But I won't be doing Medicine yet because I'm not good enough (as you know 38points can't bring you anywhere, or right now 39points), so I'll be doing International Foundation for Medicine. Yes, go ahead and laugh, hope you crash and burn.

I'll be leaving on 14th September and will be coming back next year. Sadly I won't be back for Christmas, New Year's, Chinese New Year and what other sorts because air ticket is insanely expensive! And my term breaks are super short! But yes, once I graduate next year (it's a 1 year course) and pass with flying colours (I AM GOING TO, I hope), I'll enter University of St. Andrews Medicine in September 2012. There's a lot of things to pack, and I've not started yet because as usual, I'm a procrastinator. Hahaha :):)

Okay, that's all for now. Got to go bathe and go for tuition! :)

I keep a picture of you in my heart

Cause you're on my mind

2011-08-01T15:44:00.000+01:00

Hey! It's finally the start of August :):) Just want to wish all the August babies HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :):) Sorry, I'm biased towards august babies because it's my birthday tooo!! :):) Anyway, it has been a pretty busy weekend since Friday! So let's go! :):) Don't be bored because I've been using my camera!! PRAISE ME FOR IT :D

Training on Friday was pretty alright! Suddenly there's so many people! And wow, there is a national team player in extremes! I'm super shocked and I went "UH O. I'm going to die" Hahahaha! :):) And guess what! We finally got our extremes shirt! :):) Dreaming of having one for so long, and finally I got it :) I know I'm not good enough to be in the team but I'll do my best and try to improve! I realized I'm super lousy right now! :(:(

Us in our extremes shirt after training! Super sticky and sweaty!! :D:D

After training, we went home. Brina and Chloe came over to wash up and get ready to go Zirca with the rest :):) There were a lot of people at zirca at night! :O Caught up with friends that I didn't see after IB exams like TAN BEEYONG, Annabelle, Kristine and gang! There were the current year 6s at Rebel too, but I'm not very close to them. :) But yeah, took some photos :):)

Pardon me for all my ugly pictures! I was really tired after training anyway. Hehehe! :):) My excuses :P Anyway, came home around 3am plus? I was craving for hokkien mee the entire night there! I don't know why, but in the club, I smelled hokkieen mee. HAHA I must be crazy! :D

Woke up pretty early on a Saturday morning. I forgot what we did in the morning, but I know we woke up SUPER EARLY. And I was dead tired from sleep at 4am after coming home to eat cup noodles and washing up. Hahaha :):) Went to my sister's upcoming house that will be done when I leave for studies in the UK =.="

It's very messy right now! But I'm loving the glass window from the kitchen into the living room :):)

My sister's bed room! Where she is standing in that photo (the woman in black) is where her dressing table is going to be! It's a super cool concept that they thought of! :D:D I saw the design.

My little niece's playroom!! Super cutee! LOVING THE COLOURS!! My little niece's bed room is going to be pink and white and purple! WOOHOOO!! Loving the bright colours in the house, unlike my house where everything is just WHITE. Hahahaha! :):)

Went for tuition after that, then after tuition. My sisters picked me up and we headed to school for the Alumni dinner! It's quite pathetic that only about 30+ people turned up and about half of it is from my cohort! But it's cool :):) I conclude, the triplets are pathetic and has no friends in the school :(:( There were 30+ people and 5 tables and this is how they are grouped - the rugby table, the nerdy table, the senior table, the teachers/principal table and guess what is the last one, the triplets table. I got a picture to prove to you.

Can you see? There is one table at the far end which is the teachers/principal's table which is blocked by the nerdy table. In the middle (behind my 2 sad pouting face sisters) is the rugby table and to the right is the senior's table. Look at the loner in the alumni dinner. Well, we're used to it anyway.

Our Alumni exco! :):) And my boyfriend is the president of the alumni committee! :D:D

Sunday was a longggggg day! :):) Woke up 8am for breakfast and weekly marketing! Super early in the morning! I was so tired. Anyway, came back home from marketing, slack till about 1pm when my boyfriend finally came over and we went to eat lunch at the new SICC! Super BIG AND NICE! Tried the linguine clam pasta! It wasn't as good as the butik one! But it was still edible. Hahaha! The lamb was YUMMY!! :D:D And of course my boyfriend loved the chicken wings. Hahaha!

Went to Nex to buy sushi for picnic with the girls later! :):) Came home about 3.45pm when we were suppose to meet at 4.30pm at marina barrage!! Super late, but soon did I hear the news about my mum allowing me to drive there since there is no parking charges and no ERP since it's a sunday! WOOHOOO! :):) The rest came over and got a lift there! :D:D

Going to Marina Barrage for the first time in my life! :):) Everyone carrying food and items for the picnic! :D So excited!

There were so many people flying kites and chilling out there!! We finally found a nice spot and we lay the 4 mats that Bifang contributed! It was goood! :D:D Just nice for the 9 of us! :)

The food, snacks and fruits that everyone contributed! :D:D Don't forget about the drinks which came later because Sihui was late! Apparently she was on a boat? Hahaha! :D:D

While waiting for Sihui to come so we could start picnic, we took some photos!! :):) You won't see much photos of MengShi because she said that she dislike taking photos.

Loving this photo I took of them! :):) Next time, we need a photographer to help us take photoss!!

Fixing the kite to get ready to fly!

Sihui finally came! :):) I'm not in the picture because I took this photo. Hur hur! But it's a nice photo :):)

Group photo before we start on anything! :D:D From left to right: Beefang, Daffy, Rebecca, Keewei, Me, (hidden at the back is MengShi), Krystle, Sihui and Desi! :)

Rebecca is a pro at flying the kite! It didn't take long for our kite to start flying so high in the sky! :D:D

Our pretty kite that was contributed by Krystle! :D

The wind is crazy strong and we all wanted to look pretty and thus this random photo of us taken by Sihui's friend who failed at waiting for us to pose for the picture. He didn't even say "1.. 2.. 3.." TOOTS.

Our kite flew really really high! Mengshi let the string to the end, so you should know how high is it! Since there were lots of other kites, our kite got caught into other kites during the 3 hours picnic we had. But our kite was too strong for the rest! We either untangle the string or we cut their kite. HAHA. We were so scared that our kite would get cut, but our kite was STRONG! It cut more than 4 kites during that 3 hours. How COOL. Hahahaha! :D:D

After picnic, we decided to go to punggol to prawn. Krystle and Mengshi are SUPER PRO at catching the prawns. Mengshi used her bare hands to catch the prawns! Oh my goodness! I tried, but whenever the prawn moves, I screamed. HAHAH! :D:D

We managed to catch lots of prawn during that 3 hours with 3 rod! It was quite impressive! 47 prawns in total! Woohoo to the 9 of us! :D:D It means about 5 prawns per hour per rod! That's quite alright! :D:D Hehehe :):)

Mengshi taught us to poke the satay stick right from the head to the tail while they were still alive! I was so scared to do it, so I chickened out! Hahaha, krystle was the 'man' of the night man! Hahahaha.

Eating the super yummy prawns!! :):) Mengshi was the cook for the night! Hahaha, she is such a pro! We all went back around 2.30am? It was pretty late because 3hours of prawning lasted till 12midnight and cooking it took quite some time, but eating it took SECONDS! Hahaha :):) It was an enjoyable evening :):) Finally meeting up with my clique in sengkang after years of not seeing them, especially mengshi and rebecca :):)

Okay, it's a pretty long post today! There's nothing much to talk about today since it's pretty boring! So bye! :):)

I'm just gonna dance right through the pain.

2011-07-27T15:21:00.000+01:00

Hi! :):) It's almost half the week already! Time seems to fly pretty fast! Anyway, I started off the week with a 4hour long photoshoot! It was pretty tiring and I was starving at the same time. Partly because I only ate breakfast which was at 10am and the photoshoot only ended about 6.45pm? Luckily we had some snacks during the shoot given by the photographer. Guess what, they said we put on weight! :( Super sad.. But its okay, I know I'm already fat. My mind tells me to stop snacking but my mouth will just overrule my head in a snap. Hehehe :D Luckily I was a bit 'high' during the shoot to last through the shoot :D

Tuesday was pretty much a slack day too! Facial in the morning, and then tchoukball in the early evening till dinner time! :) Played 3 games of tchoukball! Omg, I forgot how to shoot and all already! I'm so lousy now, haven't play for more than a year! Hahaha. But at least it was fun! :D The rest of the girls and the 2 coaches went for dinner at commonwealth while I met boyfriend for dinner at holland village!

We were deciding whether to eat at secret hideout because we haven't been there in ages, or should we eat at Everything With Fries because I haven't eaten it before! And guess what we chose? :D

Hehehes :D:D I didn't know what to choose and eat so I randomly ordered! Hahaha! Everything with Fries is confirm an American Cuisine because everything is DEEP FRIED, burgers and fries! Hahaha. Well, everything has a first time! :D:D Boyfriend was STARVING to death while waiting for the food :D

Dinner! Fattening dinner, but it's okay!! I burned some fats before dinner because of tchoukball. Hehehehe! :D:D After awhile, had a little sick of deep fried stuffs and the portion of fries is INSANE mad! And at the same time, I was craving for some half-boiled eggs! :D:D

So we went to YAKUN to eat egg!! Look how happy I am eating yakun eggs! They have the best half-boiled eggs ever!! Nothing can beat it, but its super pricy!! Irritating how they increase the price of the eggs by $0.20! DUDE. 1 egg cost you at most $0.50 in the market! I work at a egg stall in the market before! I know the prices! ROARS. Okay, shall stop ranting :P

After that, picked up sisters up, sent Suntang home and came home to chill! :D:D Camwhored with brina's DSLR! HEHEHE :D:D

LOVE THIS PHOTO! He's giving the what-you-staring-at look! hehehehe :D:D

Today I woke up at 8.55am, sent Desi to her tuition. Went out for breakfast with my family, without desi and my brother as he went to USS with his girlfriend! Then just slacked the entire day, went to finish up the 9pm drama on Channel 8. Lousy ending, but at least I finished the show. :D Made tiramisu, super fail but it's okay, the first time you try to make something, it always fail. Hahaha :D:D

Took some cute photos with my niece while making tiramisu! Super cute! :D:D

Okay! Rush post towards the end because I'm getting bored of blogging, or maybe there's nothing much to blog! Hehehe :):) Okay, NIGHTS. :)

Smile, because everything will seem better if you do.

Call me B-E-A-U-tiful

2011-07-24T16:36:00.000+01:00

So this week has passed so quickly. Came back from bangkok, met up with Emily for dinner on Wednesday night since it's her last few days in Singapore :( She's leaving for U.S to study. I miss her loadz. Anyway, we had dinner at Jumbo at Indoor Stadium! :D Geetha was with Emily the entire day so she joined for dinner too, with brina and I :D

Emily had cravings for chilli crab! Since Brina can't eat seafood and spicy food, the 3 girls had to gobble down the entire pot of chilli crab! I stained my dress because I dropped the crab on myself :( Super annoyed. Hahaha :D:D

Smile for the camera! :D Emily is on the left and Geetha is using her phone! :D:D

My outfit of the day! It looks very very similar to the dress that Reemaine is selling and I was modelling for that dress! :D:D It's super pretty!! It's a must get! Super love the pockets! :):)

Emily was very very nice to pay for dinner for all of us :):) Thanks yiu *hearts* After dinner we still had a little tummy for ice cream and yummy cakes! So we went indoors into Kallang Leisure Park to eat Awfully Chocolate! :D:D

Yummy yummy ice cream and chocolate cake! My boyfriend fell in love with the chocolate cake the very first time we ate it at Vivo City. Hehehe :D:D

Pardon for my disgusting hair :( I've trimmed it, this photo was taken last week. I miss you emily neh neh yiu, hurry come online :(

Later we went over to emily's place in my car! Her room was in a mess because she was packing her stuffs! She had 1 luggage full of shoes and bags, another full of clothes, and another smaller one with books. Hahaha! She's so cute :D:D Her balcony view AMAZING. I've never seen such a view with so much fresh air before. Wow. I never knew that!!

Today was a usual Sunday where we had to go for our morning marketing at China Town! :):) We had our 2nd pot luck dinner again! This time it was more organized as we agreed on who's getting what type of dish - appetizers, course, main course, desserts! And yum yum! Let's see what everyone got! :D

This is the spread for today! There's still desserts and crab that my parents got! :D:D Looks yummy? Are you hungry yet? Hehehe :D:D

So let's start with the appetizers that was bought by my eldest sister and brother-in-law!

Japanese food!! YUMMMS!! Our few favourite 'red plates' from sake sushi! :):)

Green peas for the little one in the house! She loves green peas! So does my mum. And tobiko! :D:D

Raw dishes that my family love a lot! Especially my dad and my eldest sister! I only dare to eat the tako sashimi! My brother and boyfriend loves raw salmon! :D:D Yummy appetizers that was cleaned off the plate so quickly! :D

So the next dish is the main course! Which was bought by my brother and Shuk Yee, his girlfriend! :):) They bought korean food! Korean food! Well... Brina and I went to the same restaurant to get korean food too! Firstly because korean food is expensive and also that the main course is mainly just rice and a few meat! So here is what we got from the Korean Restaurant that we found online and was recommended!

Grilled fish! Well, I didn't eat it because I don't really like grilled fish! But by the end of the dinner, the fish was almost finished :O

This is kimchi rice! It's my first time eating it and I think it's not too bad! Quite yummy! We bought 2 portions of it since there are a lot of people eating it :D It's a little spicy!

Pork collar that they helped to BBQ for us. It was quite disappointing because firstly it wasn't really BBQ-ed very nicely, and secondly, can you believe it? That picture there is 2 portions?!?! And it costed us $44 for that little pork collar! Quite disappointing, but it's okay. Now we know :)

The usual korean side dishes that they gave! YUMMY KIMCHI. This kimchi was particularly super SPICY! But I still ate a lot and also drank lots of water! Hahaha :D:D

This is the korean pancakes that smell really really good when we were in the car on the way home and yes, it was really really yummy too! :D:D It's quite good I must say :D

So let's move on to the next course that was bought and made by my parents! They went to buy 3 big fresh crabs and cockles at the market today! :):) And my dad cooked the dishes! :D:D

Our grandmother's recipe to cook cockles in black sauce and some other secret ingredient that I don't know! :D:D Only my dad knows how to cook this! Its really really really YUMMMMYYY :):) I think I finished the entire pot of it. Hahaha

Super orange and fleshy crab!! It was suppose to be live crabs when we bought it so when my dad cook it in the evening, it will still be fresh and yummy. But after marketing, my maid stored the live crabs into the freezer and froze the crabs to death. So it wasn't as fresh as it was, but it was still yummy! :D:D

Another additional dish that was given to us yesterday by Shuk Yee's parents when we were over at their house doing the jigsaw puzzles!

CAVIARRRR!!! Super yummy! For those who doesn't know what caviar is, this small little can of caviar cost at least $200! Don't play play okay!

And for those who doesn't know how to eat the caviar properly, this is how you're suppose to eat it! Take a good waffle biscuit, put egg yolk (the yolks from hard boiled eggs, and smash it really finely), put chopped onions (if you like, but I don't, so I always skip this 'ingredient'), then put your caviar on top and EAT THE WHOLE THING! :D Super yummy! :D:D

Okay! So the last dish of the pot luck dinner - desserts! Bought by daffy and desi!! :D:D

DURIAN MOCHI!! The best dessert I ever tasted!! Ever since the first time I ate it which was not very long ago, I told myself I have to eat it again!! It's the best durian-type of dessert ever! Durian cake, NO. Durian roll, NO. Durian pancakes, NO. Durian mochi, YESS!! :):) I love it! :D:D Hehehe

So that sums up my week! Nothing much have been happening! Shall take more photos with my camera and update regularly! Hopefully my posts aren't going to be as long as the last few posts! Hehehehe :):) One last photo of me and bf :D

TADAS! My first photo that does my hair justice, finally all trimmed and neat! :D:D Not going to change my hairstyle for quite some time. Still unable to find another suitable hairstyle that will suit me and my personality except bangs! Hehehe :):) Have been having bangs all my life. Except, primary 5 and 6! Can you believe it? Hahaha. Okie! Good night and bye! :D

You say good morning when it's midnight

Reemaine

2011-07-22T09:07:00.001+01:00

Hi! Haven't been updating about the blogshop that we have been modeling for some time now. Stop insulting me because I'm fat, short or whatever you can say! BLAH. Anyway, here goes!

This is the second collection that desi went alone because I had an appointment! :D So proud of her! She looks STUNNING in this photo!

This is the cover of the collection! She's so pretty! :(:( Jealous. Shall show you my favourite few photos from the collection! :D

I bought this soley because its pink. HAHAHA :D:D Comes with a free belt too! *grins* Hehehe :D:D Well, it's pink! There's alot more colours which are nice too! :D

I loved this! But it's sold out now but there's a few more other colours that looks nice too! :D:D

I bought this dress! Doesn't come with the belt though :( But it's okay, I have plenty of belts at home :D

So there's the 3rd collection where daffy is back and it's her first photoshoot! :D:D I don't want to upload the cover because I look very crappy :(:( But here's the 3rd collection that was launched when we were in bangkok! :D

Pardon me for the candid photo :(:( And for the disgusting hair, I've trimmed it already!! Don't judge me!

Pretty daffy in a maxi dress! She looks nervous because it's her first shoot but still a stunning photo! :D:D She looks HELL TALL.

And this is the latest collection which was just launched today at 2pm! :):) And yes, the cover of the collection is still very ugly, even worst now, CANDID! :(:( But it's okay. It's the clothes that matters :D:D

Daffy in a pretty work wear outfit :D

Really liked this dress a lot! The green is super pretty! :):) Pardon me for all the photos where my hands is forever in the pockets. I love dresses that has pockets, do you? :D

My mum will love this red! The photo doesn't do the colour justice! It's a super bright and nice red but somehow it looks slightly orange here, no idea why!

I think this is my 2nd favourite piece of the entire collection. Firstly it's white and pink, which totally match! And there's a super cute flower at the left side!! Hahahahaa :D:D

Okay, that's all for now! :D:D Do visit reemaine and support them! :D:D Click the link below :D

REEMAINE

Next to you

2011-07-21T16:15:00.000+01:00

HI! I'm back from bangkok trip! Actually I was back quite long ago (Monday), but I was just very very lazy to update! Anyway, life has been pretty alright for me! :) Got to sleep early so I can wake up early tomorrow to send my friend overseas for studies :( I'll miss her loads! Another post about her soon :):)

For now, random photos that I didn't upload :D

FINALLY we got our rings that we also got scammed off! Luckily the mother was kind enough to clear the daughter's shit for her! Tsk! IRRESPONSIBLE GIRL! $60+ worth of rings, necklaces and earrings! No way am I gonna get scammed by this woman! Hehehe :):) But some stuffs are still missing :(:( My earrings.... But it's okay, I got my ring! But it's abit small for me, DAMN IT.

Just cut my fringe today! Okay, pardon me for the retarded face, messy hair, disgusting background, in all, BAD PHOTO. but just want to say I'VE FINALLY TRIMMED MY HAIR SINCE February?! Insane long and untrimmed hair makes me annoyed and ugly. Hahaha!

You guys must be guessing where's my post about my bangkok trip! Hahaha, I've updated in the triplets blog! But only updated DAY 1! My sisters will cover Day 2 and 3 and I'll do the day 4 post! So... Go check it out HERE! Good night! :):)

Had a dream I was king, I woke up, still king

Maturity doesn't come with age

2011-07-15T06:13:00.000+01:00

Haven't been blogging the whole week and I'm leaving for overseas in a few hours! I'm sorry for the lack of update but I've been using my camera! Hehehe :):) Anyway, played badminton twice this week! :):) A good form of exercise rather than just lazing at home every single day!

Anyway, had prata supper on Monday night with my cousins because 2 of my cousins are soon returning to Australia for their studies soon :):) Yummy supper with them! We agreed that they will come up to UK during December holiday and see us and tour Europe together! Hehehe :):)

Kenneth and Shaun! Kenneth is going back to Australia to study vet! :):)

And Chun Ting is going back to finish her foundation course at Trinity college so she can enter melbourne uni next year! :):)

Went back to school on Tuesday to collect my retake results and no, I did not hit 40 and above :( My final grade is 39points, but whatever, it's still good, I think. :):) Meet up with some teachers that I wanted to visit and had a good chat with them! :D:D Especially Ms Grace and Ms Cheryl Seah. Hahaha :):) Had dinner with boyfriend on Wednesday night because we can't spend the weekend together as I'm in bangkok! :D:D

The only picture we had together and we were in the cab at the traffic light, so the car in front of us was pressing its breaks, that's why we look like lobsters. Hahahaha! :):)

Went clubbing on Ladies night with my siblings! First time going with my brother, he's way too cute!! Hahahaha! But he's scary at times too, he's always THIS close to getting into a fight with others guys! And Chloe too!! She just elbow the guy away! Super fierce! Hahahaha! But it was a fun night at butter factory with my siblings (3 of them), shuk yee, xinquan, qihui, chloe and shuk yee's friends! :):) It's great to have guys that you know around you to 'protect' you :D:D We left early because we were so tired at 1.30am, damn it, we're so old already. HAHA.

QIHUI :D:D Super skinny! Super jealous :D

My funny brother drinking beer that someone gave him. He finished the entire beer!! Hahahaha :D:D

Shuk Yee and friends :D Left to right: Shuk Yee, Sze Fong (I think that's how it's spelt), Hazel and me! :D

The girls at the club!! :):) Shuk Yee, Sze Feng, Hazel, Qihui, Me, Daffy, Desi, Chloe and Nicole

That slutfriend that has been camping at my house this entire week and playing badminton with us too! :D

Pretty qi :):)

We went to eat PRATA after butter factory because qihui haven't eaten dinner and we were slightly starving!! Hahaha :):) We went home about and by the time we get to bed, it was about 3.30am? Yeah, I'm old, I need my beauty sleep. Hahaha :):)

Yesterday was the opening of HARRY POTTER!! We booked tickets last weekend so that we could watch! :D:D We went to bishan to watch! The theater wasn't even half-filled! Quite shocking! Maybe because it's the first day, and it's a weekday, and it's at bishan, and it's in the morning at 11am. Okay, it make sense now. Hahaha!

TADA! :):) 6 seats! Awesome seatings! My mum, sisters, brother, his girlfriend and I went! :):) My mum kept asking a lot of questions during the show! Hahahaha, I have no idea too because I don't read the books! Hahaha, but everything made sense after awhile, except for the fact that why harry potter didn't die the first time?? I thought he used the stone to be kept alive, but I clearly remember that he threw it on the ground. Hmms, nevermind, when I'm free, I shall read the book! Hahaha :):)

Emily came over in the late afternoon to meet up for awhile! I'll miss her! She said she was going to the UK to study, but suddenly she's going to the US and she's leaving next Friday already! :( I'll miss her a lot! I had photoshoot in the evening, so she helped me with the make-ups by bringing her make-up kit to help me! :):) And she doesn't have all the make-up stuffs and I have none, so I took my eldest sister's make-up set without her permission and that's when the big HOO-HAA came about. =.="

Pretty make-up done for me! :):) She said she wanted to be a make-up artist! Hahaha :):) She's too cute! Went for photoshoot in the evening and it lasted till 9pm plus! Wow, quite exhausting but it's quite fun too :):) hehehe. Hopefully the photos will turn out nice! :D

Let's be direct. Yes it was my fault that I took things without permission and I humbly say I'm sorry, and I am sorry for being angry at the heat of the moment and said mean stuffs. What more do you want other than sorry, a damaged item could be easily replaced, but threatening is the worst thing someone could ever to, and more so to your own kin. So I'm expecting revenge? It's funny how things are starting to be how kids fight during primary school. It's shameful to be doing it all over social network.

I've done my part by deleting the comments, but you just have to have itchy hands to go on. I'm tired of drama. It's pathetic and shameful. I'm not that girl who didn't dare to speak up in the past, I grew up and have a mind of my own and will not get pushed around again. I'm no longer that girl who you can splash cold water at, get slapped by you, get my head dunked into the bathtub. I had enough. I've grown up, grow up too.

Anyway, I'm leaving in 45mins!! :):) Can't wait to go SHOPPINGGGGGG!! :):) A holiday is needed right now. :)

You haven't thought about the cost incurring on others for you

The best love song she ever heard

2011-07-10T16:59:00.000+01:00

I know we'll make it through

Today was a happy day spent together with my boyfriend! :):) We went to sentosa to ride the luge for the first time for me and the UPTEEN THOUSAND times for my boyfriend. Initially, it was SCOTCHING hot and the entire place was filled with people! So we decided to buy 5 rides per person. And guess what happened! IT STARTED TO POUR. :(

And the worst thing was, we thought it was going to pour for a super long time. So we left the luge, which we shouldn't have, and headed for vivo to go shopping and walk around. We wasted 3 more rides per person! :( But it's okay, so long we're spending quality time together with each other :)

We were traveling up to the luge by sky ride! And as usual, my boyfriend is super afraid of heights! Hehehe :):) So we took photos thinking that he will forget about it! Hehehehe :):) What a trick right! :D That's for having a girlfriend who likes to take photos! Hahaha :D:D

We got our helmets on ready to ride the luge! Hahaha, I was pretty scared on the first try, but after that, it was FUN FUN FUN! Sadly, we didn't sit 5 times which we should have :( But it's okay, what is done is done!

Went to vivo to walk around and we were pretty hungry, so we went to awfully chocolate to eat some yummy chocolate cake! It was really funny how the cake costed $7.15 and I used $10 to pay and they told me they had no change for me. So I had to use nets at the end of the day. Weird much?

Look at the happy boy with the chocolate cake! He gobbled down the cake super fast! Hehehe :):) And of course, dying of thirst later. Hahaha :):) Love him to bits! :):) We went shopping later where he got me a super cheap dress for $25 (you can't find things that are below $20 nowadays, even blogshops) and I bought him 2 tops that are $30! Then we went to chill at the decks at vivo for a bit where noisy people started to shout at each other, spoiling the calmness. Annoying much.

Today my family decided to have pot luck for dinner, so we had to bring home food! My boyfriend and I brought home sushi and soup restaurant's hometown tofu and chicken! And when I reached home, the entire dinning table was filled with FOOD. Duck meat, prawn noodles, ikea prawns, mutton soup and much much more, but I really forgotten. We ate till we're so full! We're having pot luck 2 weeks from now again and this time we have to cut down on the amount of food.

So Sunday came and passed so quickly. Tomorrow will be badminton! :)

Nothing will ever come between us

You can't take me down

2011-07-09T16:59:00.000+01:00

Pardon the ugly face.
Hi! Trying to blog regularly! Anyway, I didn't lose my camera!! My maid found it in the car under the carpet. Most probably I threw it there when I couldn't have Van Der Sar's autograph and my legs were killing me and pissed off. Hahaha :):) Shall upload the photos soon? Hehehe :):)

Anyway, yesterday my brother, his girlfriend, my boyfriend and I had a doubles tennis match! Hahaha, well...... OF COURSE my boyfriend and I won, because he's a tennis player. Hahahaha! Just kidding, we didn't take scores :) We played for fun, but we end up picking up balls 1/3 of the time. Hahahaha! Wanted to play squash, but I had my netball shoes on and couldn't enter the court with the shoes :( So my brother had his girlfriend played while me and my boyfriend went to play table tennis!! Hahaha :):)

Later we played couple vs couple table tennis. My boyfriend was a primary school school team's tennis player and my brother girlfriend's was a secondary school school team's tennis player. So my brother and I were losers. HAHAHA :):) But HEY, we played table tennis when we were young too okay! We even had our own bats and good table tennis balls and expensive table tennis table!! Hahaha :):) Then later ate lunch and met the rest at NEX to watch Monte Carlo, which was disappointing!! But oh well! At least we(my sisters and I) did one thing together! :):)

I really hate my fringe now, it's neither long nor short! What should I do? Cut my bangs back? Or leave it as it is? I'm so tempted to cut my bangs!! TELL ME WHAT TO DO :( Shall sleep now since it's actually quite late. Shall post this at 11.59pm although it's 12.38am :):) Hehehe! Nights lovelys!

So I swallowed the fear

You give up to anybody what I thought was only mine

2011-07-06T16:11:00.000+01:00

Haven't been blogging well these few days! Okay, I owe you guys one :) I got a formspring question asking me to blog more. Hehehe :):) Anyway, today was a tiring day because I walked and stand for about 6hours today, trying to chase Edwin Van Der Sar to get his signature. And guess what? I DIDN'T. I bet you guys must be thinking "I DID", but nope. Disappointed but well, at least I see him! :):)

I had photos and videos of him for the entire day! But guess what happened? I think I've lost my camera. WTF right? Urghs, so annoying. I totally remember putting it around my wrist, and when I went up the car, I threw into the car. I didn't even hear a sound of it dropping on the floor, making a super loud echo sound in the carpark. :( I have no idea where the camera is now. SO UPSETTING.

My legs are hurting so badly now. :( I thought that I was going to be able to take a photo with the super tall Van Der Sar, so I purposely wore a super super high heel out the entire day. Walked around in Marina Square in the afternoon in the heels, walked over to MBS to see VDS, stood in the crowd for so freaking long, perspire like a freaking pig, drove to clarke quay and waited for his arrival again, perspire like a freaking pig AGAIN, stood up the entire time till he came, thinking that I will get his signature on my jersey, but NOPE, he just walk passed us. :( I finally got to really rest my dying legs around 8pm++.

Oh goodness, this will be my last time chasing a superstar/celebrity the entire day. NO MORE. Perspire so much, and even if I take a photo with him/her, I'll look like crap. Hahahaha. SO NO MORE. :) The end.

Time and love would heal the pain.

I must say, we're inseparable.

2011-07-04T12:39:00.001+01:00

Hey! Haven't been blogging very often. Have been pretty boring lately :D:D Just wanted to wish my boyfriend and I happy 3 years and 4months! Can't believe it's so long already! WOW. Hahahaha :):) Anyway, I'm a really really happy girl today :D:D Great news to share along as time passes :):)

Anyway, last week, I went for a photoshoot with my sister for a blogshop. :):) They sell working wear clothing, so you can check them out if you want :D:D My photos are really really ugly and my hair got really wet because of my perspiration. Check them out by clicking on the photo :D

For now, tatas :):) Miss me :D

The half way point

2011-06-30T09:42:00.000+01:00

Uber uber lazy to blog nowadays. Pretty much have been going on with my life, but I'm lazy to put it down into words. Just 2 random photos of me when I was studying for my interview. Bye :)

Short and random

2011-06-20T04:44:00.001+01:00

I've deleted my cbox! It's so annoying how I get spams on my tagboard. Irritating!! But I've open comments for my posts! :):) So if you want to tell me something, leave a comment! :D:D Or seriously, just text me, talk to me on skype/msn, facebook message me. WHATEVER. Hahahaha :):) Bye.

just to show you my cute dog! :D

There's a pounding in my head

2011-06-16T14:01:00.000+01:00

I feel like blogging, but when I open a new post, I just stare at the page and I do not know what to write. Maybe because my day has been pretty mundane. No one to talk to, all I do is stare at my computer looking at plurk, twitter, facebook, tumblr and all the other random stuffs. And soon later, there's nothing to do. So I take a nap on my bed.

Ate macdonalds with my siblings just because we want the macdonald cups. It's super cute. We wanted to collect them all but we've already missed the first 2 colours which is green and pink! :( Sad.. And yes, good sale tactics they have to make customers buy macdonalds and grow fat :(

Feelings? Annoyed. Annoyed by the fact people take their home just as a place to sleep. If you dread coming home, don't. It's annoying how pathetic your attitude is at home. It's pathetic how you use lies to cover up for lies. You disgust me. Tremendously. You don't deserve this treatment from people around you when you don't help yourself.

Currently now, I have 3 tuition students and my income isn't what I wanted to be. Sigh. Money is forever a big problem. I need to get about 10 students to get my ideal income. Wow, that's quite insane. I hope everything goes smoothly. After ISAT in July and UKCAT in August (after I sign up), I will take up more tuitions. Hopefully I can get good rates and nearby places. Petrol and parking coupons are expensive!

Can't wait to start on secret mission :)

Am I wrong?

2011-06-15T13:33:00.000+01:00

Hey! Haven't been blogging for some time. And yes, I have no pictures to upload :( Sorry. But anyway, week 1 of tuition is done! Had 3 tuition lessons last week. Going to have 2 tuitions tomorrow, hopefully I can get hold of the student who has been avoiding me :( Oh! Just received a sms from her mum. So much for covering up for her and I got scolded. FML

Anyway, had my first training with Extremes on Friday night. I totally died. Warm-up was 6courts 5rounds. Oh goodness. Luckily I managed to push myself to complete the run. But after that, I just died. The others had friendly match with U19s and I didn't play because my coach knew that I would 'die' on court. Hahaha :):) Time for some self-training. And oh yes, I've been aching for 3days after the training. HOW UNFIT I AM. :(

My aunt has been staying at my place for 2 nights! :) Enjoyed her stay with us. She even helped me to do some make-up. Hahaha! I guess she likes dolling girls up :D Anyway, it's going to be half the week and I've done nothing but eat. :(

Time to start doing notes for my tuition students! And start stressing about my student who has Math Portfolio to hand up by the end of June holidays :( Oh goodness. Never thought I would touch math port again!! :P

Speechless

2011-06-08T18:21:00.002+01:00

I can't even put it into words.

“When you can’t see something bad, you’ll imagine it to be much worse than it is. So you will fear much more. But when you can actually see it, your worry is cut into half. And when you face it, it further cuts into half. This is called relief.”

- Obstetrics And Gynecology Doctors

Suddenly my future seems so vague. Or maybe it was always vague and I just dream about it too much.

Written in the stars

2011-06-06T17:15:00.000+01:00

Just being random, I think she's damn pretty and hot! Chantelle Anderson! She was a participant for Ford Supermodel Singapore. All the contestants have to be 1.77m and ABOVE. What?!?! That's super tall!! I feel like a dwarf now. Hahaha :):)

Anyway, life has been pretty dull these few days. Starting my first tuition tomorrow, which I'm so freaked out about! Like, I really don't know how to teach Sciences in 1.5hours. Especially it's chem & bio. But i'll try. Seriously, I don't know how to tuition Chemistry and Biology because I didn't really have tuition on Sciences before. Math is still excusable. Hahaha :):) Hopefully things goes pretty smoothly tomorrow :):)

My family went on a mahjong streak again! Starting from yesterday! And finally we can have some family bonding time because for once in my life, my dad decided to join in mahjong and play with us. And finally I do see how I resemble him. He's so crazy, which I am (at times). He can go high on anything, which I am too. He's so cute, which I am. HAHA. Okay, I shall stop here. But after yesterday's and today's mahjong sessions, I really do think I resemble him ALOT.

Just applied for my ISAT test in end july. Hopefully I do have the time to study and I do well too. Although still having second thoughts on going to Aussie to study. Time to start applying for UKCAT in August too. Let's go for a second try and this time really getting 700 and above. Good night.

You're leaving because it's easier to walk away than to fight for what you want.

Wishing on the stars

2011-06-01T13:46:00.001+01:00

Hey! Today haven't been a very active day for me. I was mostly just slacking around at home. Can someone ask me out or something? I'm super bored. Give me tuitions, I wouldn't mind :( Anyway, woke up around 8.35am today! Send my brother to his tuition place. I have no idea how he gets so many tuitions so fast and is people find him for tuition, not he find for tuition!! What!! How can that be right? :(

Anyway, yes, back to what I was saying. Send him to tuition, and I drove the car back ALONE. I almost died because it's my first time driving the mercs out, and the car is super big and LONG. Oh gosh, I was so scared that I missed the left turn and I had to take the longer route home. Hahaha, but it's okay, I managed to get home safetly :)

Came home and to my surprise my dad was in the kitchen making chong you bing! And my mum and sister, Daffy, was helping out! And as usual, Desi is still in dream land. Hahaha :):)

Main cook for breakfast :)

HELPERS! :)

Daffy concentrating on her 'masterpiece' :D

The products! Looks yummy right?? It's super yummy! Especially those that were made looking like curry puffs, but a lot of spring onions inside! SUPER SUPER YUMMY! :):) We tried making the milk ones, but it was kinda of bad :(:( But it's okay! :D My dad made the dough super nice! I have no idea he had such skills!! And I thought my sisters and I were the only one in the house who knows how to make so-so doughs. My dad is AWESOME :):) He must tell me all his secret recipes! :D:D

Anyway, nothing much on today. I went to watch random movies from Jackboon's hard drive and just kept munching on food throughout the day. Hahaha. Anyway, random picture below.

This used to be a piece of failure paper. If you can see 1 tiny paper in the middle of the pile that said "C PO.." I think it meant traffic police. Haha, so much hints given out already! This is my results for my 1st driving test where I failed. Failures must be broken down into tiny pieces and let it go with the wind! :):) I shall start doing that from now onwards! Next thing to cut up is my break-down for my IB results that is still stuck on my board. 8 of July shall be the day. :) Goodbye for now :D

Oh wait! One more thing. It's a new month - June! And I have no idea why people say it's already half the year when IT'S NOT. Dude seriously, if you think it longer, you will realize that half the year means END OF JUNE, not beginning of june! Roars~~~

This is gonna be a good life

I feel lucky like a four-leaf clover

2011-05-31T16:48:00.000+01:00

Let's start form the beginning of last week! :D Went to school on Wednesday for A Div Tchoukball Competition! There are so many new kids in the school! Hahaha. Anyway, I was the photographer for the day! :D:D The girls were super cute :) They came in 4th :)

The girls and suntang! :)

The 3 supporters for the girls for the day! Hehehe. Chloe looks retarded with her hands on her head because she said her fringe looks horrible. HAHA :):)

So the next day after A Div tchoukball, which is Thursday 26th May! Had driving from 10.20 to 12midday! My instructor was telling me better pass my test the second time! Hahaha, and yes I did! :):) Me and Daffy were the only school-students that took the test that day! The rest were all private! Wow! Super shocking! Hahaha :):)

Came home for dinner, mum's birthday dinner! My mum called chef-on-hire! Yummy dinner :):) My mum invited her friends too. I hope she loved her birthday this year! She's finally 55years old, senior citizen?? Hehehe :):) She's still young at heart :D

Poloroids with all the couples that attended mum's birthday dinner! We put it into a poloriod holder that could be hung anywhere! Now thinking about it, I wonder where did the poloroids went to... Hahahaha! Hopefully it's somewhere in my mum's room :):)

On friday, my family went to Malaysia for holiday (my dad went for work) leaving me behind at home. Hahaha! Just kidding, I didn't want to go because I wanted to spend time with my boyfriend for his 19th birthday :) So on friday I went to buy stuffs for my boyfriend's birthday surprise at his house with the help of his close friends :D

Ate dinner with him as he just booked out of camp and he was STARVING. Hehehe. TCC is good man! They have 1-for-1 main course! WOW, super shocking! Our dinner only costed us $20? It's considered quite cheap for a place like TCC!

Ta-da!! Surprised him at his house! It was kinda a fail surprise because the rest were suppose to hide in his house, but they made so much noise that when my boyfriend and I were at the door, we could hear them laughing and thus my boyfriend was super suspicious. Hahaha!

I reached home about 2am+ and finally went to bed at 3am! Woke up the next morning at 11am, waiting for the fat pig to get up so we can spend the day together and eat brunch/lunch/tea together. But guess what time that stupid pig woke up? 5pm. Zzz.. I almost died of starvation!! I still went to tell my sister and brother-in-law that I don't need to eat lunch.

And he had family dinner till 9pm. He came over to pick me up and finally reaching the dinner place at 10.30pm, where I finally have a first OFFICIAL meal of the day. I starved till I was so angsty. Later met the rest up at zouk. I didn't drink any drinks that night, thinking I could drive home, but I didn't :( I went home about 2am because there was soccer match which totally made me waste my time watching. Barcelona was just owning ManUnited so badly! But they were good :D

The evil guys made my boyfriend drank 4 shots. I thought he was going down on the first shot, but wow! Even after 4 shots, he was still fine and could come over to my place and say hi! Hahahaha :):)

But my boyfriend was really high that night that I couldn't take a nice photo with him!! Hahaha, and I look horrible too. So it's okay, we're an ugly couple together. Hahahaha! Woke up the next day at 10am, dragging myself out of bed to go for weekly marketing. I only had 4hours of sleep!! Wanted to watch KungFu Panda 2 with boyfriend, but there weren't any more tickets!! Wow! So I end up meeting him for dinner, eating at XinWang Cafe and off he went back into camp. :D:D And that's how I ended my weekend :):)

Because we're butterflies, we were meant to fly

On the edge of glory

2011-05-29T16:26:00.001+01:00

Haven't put make-up in the longest time! I think the last time I did make-up was during Chinese New Year. Hahaha. :):) Anyway, sorry for the lack of updates! Been pretty busy this week with driving, and 2 birthdays! :):) My mum's and boyfriend's birthday. How nice is it when their birthdays are just 2 days apart from each other! Hahaha :):)

Anyway, I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST. Woohoooo. Have been driving quite a lot lately because my brother-in-law lets me drive his car while he sits beside me. I'm trying to learn to drive with one hand only, but it's quite scary at times. And my parking is still a major fail, but I sense improvements. Hahaha :):) Hopefully after awhile, my parents have faith in me and I can drive with no one sitting beside me :D

Totally not in a good mood to blog now because my cramps are killing me and I'm half awake due to the lack of sleep last night, or should I say this morning, when I slept at 6am and woke up at 10am this morning and went through the day as per normal. I shall blog another day about my mum's birthday and my bf's birthday :) For now, just another camwhore photo of me. :D

Fun fun fun

2011-05-23T07:45:00.000+01:00

It's the end of the week! :) Finally exams are over! Happy girl in the photo talking to her bf on the phone, while her sister is busy playing her games on her computer and replying a sms :D

LOOK AT THE AMOUNT OF PAPERS ON THE TABLE. Maybe it's not so clear, but it's so much until our table looks so cramp and small :( But now it's allllll cleared! :)

So.. On Saturday, we went to Australia Fair in Bugis National Library. Reluctantly applied for UNSW and Uni of Tasmania. But whatever, hopefully I get a reason.

3 of us started wearing heels so that we can train ourselves in heels. Joke right? At the age of 18 going onto 19, we still can't really walk very well with heels :(

Then in the evening we had popiah party at my mum's friend's house! Miss popiah alot!!

Yummy popiah ingredients so we can DIY! :)

My pro mummy which is best at rolling the popiah! I have no idea how she got such skills! Since young, she has been always rolling our home-made popiahs! :):) Yummyyyy :D

Then yesterday my juniors from ACS (Intl) had a carnival at Kallang Netball Centre. I know, I haven't been there in months! Gosh! How I miss that place so much! And of course, some photos!

Love this photo a lot! Although not everyone is in the photo! :):) Well, at least I am! Hahaha! Kidding :):)

Love you guys to bits! Going back to school tomorrow for U14 games, hopefully the team is strong enough :):) That's all for now, sorry for a rush and short update! :):) Bye!

Anyone needs tuition? :)

Any student needs tuition? :)

2011-05-21T10:03:00.001+01:00

Name: Dulcena Yen
Age: 18+
Highest qualification: International Baccalaureate Diploma

IGCSE certificate (2007-2008):
Biology - A*
Chemistry - A*
Emath - A*
English - A
Chinese - A
Economics - B
Literature - B
Amath - B

International Baccalaureate certificate (2009-2010):
HL Biology - 6
HL Chemistry - 6
HL Mathematics - 6
SL Chinese - 7
SL Economics - 5
SL English - 5
EE/TOK - 3
Overall - 38points

Willing to teach students from primary school to secondary school. :) Tuition fees ranging from $15-$30 :):) Email me at dulcena@hotmail.com. Thank you! And spread the word! :D:D

23hours

2011-05-17T09:58:00.000+01:00

Anthony the ant is back homeeeeeeeee :):) Hahahahah! His awkward looking face when daffy said he look like a dinosaur. Hahahaha! :):):)

I'M DONE WITH ECONS EXAMS! Wooohoooooooo :):) Finally! Now it's time for BIOLOGY :):) Hopefully I do get my 7 again! I really need this though. :) Hopefully I do well in MCQ and paper 3 so that it won't pull my grades down like the last time! :):)

Had a few hours with bf today! :D:D He's so adorable! :):) He's going back to army soon! :) All the best little booboo, don't fall sick! :D:D

My bf in his army outfit, all set to go back in! :):) And his CLEAN FACE THANKS TO ME! :D:D Hahahah, I was helping him wash his dirty face which has so much pimples! And desi helped me to record it. Hahaha, he didn't know till at the end when I asked him to open his eyes :P

You can watch it here!

And and also, another fun video of desi sliding down the stairs with our sofa's cushion! Hehehehe :D:D

Have fun! :D:D I've posted all my videos on youtube, you can check them out at the links at the side! Hehehehe. :):) Super cute :D

Sometimes I wish I can superglue your mouth together so you won't talk.

2011-05-15T17:31:00.000+01:00

It's all about karma, so watch your tongue

Econs paper starts in 12hours' time. Oh gosh, how I hate Economics so much. How I wish that I achieve a 7 for it, but I know it will be hard for me when my Econs Portfolio will pull my grades down. I just want a grade up to a 6. Hopefully I do get it. Just let me hit the big '4'. I'll be jumping for joy if I get 40, I'll be SUPER happy if I get 41. You might be thinking, "1 point ONLY". Initially I always thought "1 point ONLY", until I see university application where 38points and 39points have MAJOR differences. No, I'm not kidding, it gave me a SMACK on my face, not once, not twice, but thrice.

It's getting on my nerves as each day passes, and how I wish it could all disappear once and for all. I never regretted what I did during my IB years. I know that I've put in my best efforts even though all the crazy hiccups during year 6. I know there will be arguments against my point, but seriously, the teachers in year 6 was the blame to my downfall of grades. You might say, it's not all about teachers. But some students, like myself, study most productively during lesson time. If I have the worst teacher, my grades will be bad. And thus, my grades now. Yeah, yeah, go ahead and laugh, go ahead and say I'm making excuses, KARMA WILL STRIKE YOU IN THE ASS.

I never expected myself to get such a grade in the first place. I was actually quite delighted with my grades. But as each day passes, I start to take my words back. Why? What made me take my words back? It's not because I regretted not studying hard enough, in fact, I think I studied the 2nd hardest in my life. The hardest was in IGCSE, but it failed me miserably. I think I found the reason why today, because I'm just tired of explaining to you what I've went through and tired of going against you, so I reluctantly admit defeat. Does this satisfy you now? Remember, karma.

Money, money, money. "Life is not all about having money"Initially, I thought this statement was true, but as I grow older, I disagree to this statement like mad. Life is all about money, who dare says that they do not want to have money? I'm turning 19 this year, and then the next year, I'll hit the big '2'. And still I'm depending on my parents to give me pocket money, depending on them to pay for my school fees, depending on them for food and shelter. I just want to be independent. I'm turning 19, and still not going anywhere. The thought of it makes me feel useless. And again, I'm thinking, someone will rub it in my face. Don't you forget, karma will strike back at you, so shut up.

There again I was tonight forcing laughters, faking smiles

I don't know how good I'll make it, but watch how good I'll fake it.

2011-05-14T05:27:00.001+01:00

Hello! Two nights ago, 2 aircons in our house broke down :( Sadly, it was my room's and my parent's room. We ended up bunking in with my brother, but we didn't have enough mattress as my maid was using it. So I ended up sleeping on the floor and my sister sleeping on the chair. Well, my mum has to be sleeping on my brother's bed! Hahaha :):)

Desi all cuddled up on the chair sleeping. But soon later my brother dragged her to the floor as I brought my room's sofa cushion and lay it for her to sleep there. :D

MY BED. Pathetic? The floor was too cold, so i ended up taking the mattress sheet and lay it on the floor. I woke up with a BACKACHE :( Sad right?

And my all cuddled up in her warm warm blanket on the nice nice comfy bed! Hahahaha :):)

My family that watch me to sleep every night! Hehehehe :):) Adorable?? :D

My brother crashed my 'bed'!!!! Everything fell apart after this and I had to arrange everything again! :(

Sad dulcy has to sleep on the floor! And oh yes. The repair man would not come to repair on the weekend so we have to sleep in the living room for the next few nights!! :(:(

Yesterday while studying, my sisters went a bit high, JUST A BIT, and they pulled their pants up REALLLLYY high to act like a nerd. Hahahaha :):)

Aren't they adorable too?? Hehehehehe :):)

Yesterday I also received a surprise from my bf!! :):) Didn't know he pre-ordered flowers for me! :):) He's such a sweetheart :D:D

Short, sweet and simple. 3 'S'

Hold my hand

2011-05-12T15:16:00.000+01:00

Random photos that are in my computer! :):)

Skyped with darling Emily yesterday!! Haven't met her in ages! Didn't get to meet her in London when we were touring UK. She's still as cute as ever. So jealous of her that she in a university in UK already :( But whatever, I'm proud of her :D:D

I taught her how to do the fishtail braid!! Her hair is nicer than mine lah!! So thin and nice! PSSHHHH! It's her first time doing it only leh! So embarrassing to do worst than her when I'm the 'teacher'! Hahaha :):)

Study night with Desi! We were so tired after day 1 of Chemistry paper that we had to drink milo to keep ourselves awake to study Options paper for Chemistry the next day! Daffy was having interview over skype while we were studying, but we studied together later :D

CUTEEEEEEE PHOTOOOO?? It's damn random because daffy saw this on tumblr, and I asked the photo from her. But isn't it cute?!?! I think the kitten must be really sad.. It got dyed and looked like pikachu! But it's so cute, I totally want to do that to my dogs. Hahahaha! :):)

Photobooth-ed with my mum last night! She's OMEGA CUTEEEEEE. She looks quite young for her age man! Hahahaha. ANd so HIP. Hahahahah! Cutest mum EVAAA. :D

Tatas. :D

That's why I smile

2011-05-11T12:44:00.000+01:00

Hey! Chemistry papers on Monday and Tuesday were..... Okay? I'm not sure, IB changed the format of the paper which really annoys me, but oh well :( It's over! So glad that 3 papers are down, 5 more to go. :( Next week is gonna be tough, but by the end of the week, I'M A FREE BIRD AGAIN :)

Anyway, on Saturday my siblings and I decided to cook homecooked lunch! :D:D Without the help of desi because she's always sleeping away :D

Yummy home-cooked lunch! :D:D Har-gao, fishcake tofu, cream of mushroom soup, luncheon meet plus egg, hot dogs and top shell! So much food for 4 people :D:D Loving it :P This prove that I can live on my own and make my own meals! Hehehehe :):) But I'm gonna be stuck here for the next 1 year, at least :(

Saturday night was ELECTION NIGHT! And my house is part of Aljunied! And of course the big hoo-haa that everyone knows is that Workers' Party is running Aljunied now! :O Hopefully things will be smooth. Really dislike politics, especially here. :( Well... Life is unfair and people backstab for their own motives, so WATCH YOUR BACK!

Mothers' Day was on Sunday and my parents just touched down in Singapore on Sunday evening! :D:D We did signs for our mummy saying "Happy Mothers' Day We love You!" :) Well.. It wasn't as glamourous as others as they can afford to buy prada, gucci, LV and all. But it's really the thought that counts right? :)

4 of us, the little naughty one and my dad holding the sign waiting for my mum to come out from the washroom :D

My mum was so shocked to see! :):) Great that she was happy :D

Isn't she adorable???? But she's annoying at times too. I guess that makes a kid playful.

Photo at the dinner place! :) My dad has craving for duck. Hahaha :):)

We decorated her toilet door too! :D:D hehehe, and she's there washing her face :P

We placed the signs at her wardrobe! :):):)

She's the best mum I can ever have. Although there are times which I say "ARGHHHH, ANNOYING", but no matter what she's still the best mum ever! :) She's so hip and cool and has a facebook account. She's so sporty as she watches soccer and is always up-to-date about football news. She's always very understanding and forgiving no matter what I do. She's always willing to pay for anything that I want, but I'm not greedy. In fact, I feel so bad :( She's the best at disciplining us, I have no doubts about that! I just want to thank her for bringing me into the world that causes a life-time scar at her belly due to the c-section. I love you mummy :D

Maybe because it was mothers' day, MANCHESTER UNITED BEAT CHELSEA in the EPL :):) They are just 1 point away from their 19th league tittle! Wooots :):) Still loving Van Der Sar, although he's retiring already :( I'm starting to like Valencia.. Hehehehe :):)

Okies! Long post? Whatever! Got to go back to work! I totally miss my bf :( He's only coming out on Monday night and going back in on Tuesday!! And that is still when I'm having my exams :(:(:( The week passed too slowly. :( Bye :)

I do what I want, when I feel like it.

So many things, so little time

2011-05-08T19:40:00.001+01:00

New profile picture? :( The quality of the photo sucks and the colour too. :( How?
Anyway, the weekend was great! So many things has happened and I do not have time to blog about it now as my exams starts in less than 12hours!!!! First paper, chemistry, I must get my '7'!! I swear I must, if not I'm damn freaking disappointment :( Anyway, good luck to all taking exams tomorrow! Especially my sisters who are taking Stats Math tomorrow in the morning! :):) Will be there cheering for them, JIAYOUS! :D:D Pray for us!! You'll be loved by 3 of us! :D:D We will put a super super super super big "thank you" on our blog - www.three-dyen.blogspot.com :)

Okay, shall blog about my weekend when I'm free!!! :):) WARNING, NEXT POST IS GONNA BE LONG :D
- Home-cooked lunch (Yumms)
- Aljunied GRC belongs to WP now
- Mothers' Day
- Man United 2-1 Chelsea
Stay tune :)

Anticipation crushed

2011-05-06T09:40:00.000+01:00

Today I learn what this braid is called - Fishtail Braid. Today I learn how to do a fishtail braid. Today I helped my sister do the fishtail braid too. Today I should be studying, but I'm wasting my time doing this. Okay, got to really go study now. I have no idea why I'm studying now. To get better grades? But the universities don't want to look at my retaken grades. So what do I do? Why am I sitting for retakes again? Why am I wasting money again? Why am I wasting my time studying again? I really don't know what I'm doing.

IB May 2011 BEGINS.

2011-05-03T13:54:00.002+01:00

I'm a freaking camwhore whenever I'm bored. Hahaha. That's my phone for now till iPhone 5 comes out! Hopefully I get to buy it. Anyway, that's not the point. I want to wish everyone taking May 2011 exams ALL THE BEST :):) Those who are taking the same paper as me, please do badly, so moderations will not be high. HAHA, kidding. I'm not so evil. :):) Just everyone do well and don't beat me. You can get your 7s, but I want mine too! :D:D BYE :):)

The army boyfriend

2011-04-30T18:28:00.000+01:00

Boyfriend is ready for army this coming Wednesday! :( He is no longer a duck, it is anthony the ant. Hehehehe :):) Love you :D

Orange represents spiritual energy and healing

2011-04-28T19:49:00.001+01:00

It is an empowering color to wear.

Examinations start next week but I do not have any exams on the first week. Well, my sisters does and they are panicking like crazy! It's quite scary to think that I'm going to take the same few papers again. :( Depressing at the same time. But whatever it is, I'll survive the next 3 weeks, I hope.

What can go even worst than this? Boyfriend going into army on anniversary/monthsary for 2 weeks confinement. And that 2 weeks confinement is when examinations starts and when the stress kicks in. Blahs, hopefully things goes well and 2 weeks will pass so quickly that I don't even realized. Hopefully I can push my grades by 3points up and hit the big '4'. :)

My aunt that is from U.S is currently staying at my place for a few days before she returns to U.S and never return back here. She came back to see my sickly grandmother that passed away recently. She's staying in my brother's room, means my brother has to sleep in my room and ON MY BED. As I'm super lazy to climb up and down the ladder and share a bed with my sister, and there is NO SLIDE to slide down from my bed, I decided to take a mattress and lay on the floor to sleep :P

Elections are going on now. It got me thinking of how when I was young, I never KNEW a single thing about elections. I started learning about elections and voting in the last elections 2006. It's quite sad how I still don't have the chance to vote because of my age :( I WANT TO VOTE. My housing area is in Aljunied GRC which is running by PAP now. This year's nomination is PAP and WP! Let's see who gets to run this GRC for the next 4 years! :):) Politics can be quite fun to watch/hear sometimes :)

It's pretty late now and today is the ROYAL WEDDING. Well.. Time difference.. So it's not really today yet :D Hehehehe :):) Oh yes, I've booked my second driving test on my mum's birthday! Same date and same timing with daffy's driving test date too! :):) Hopefully we can pass together :D And PLEASE give me a driving lesson on the 18-24th May for revision pleaseeee anyone? :( Okay, it's quite late now. Shall wake up and start studying on Human Physiology for Biology tomorrow :):) Interesting and fun! Love it :D

Drawing the lines; Drawing the boundaries.

You're just close enough to touch

2011-04-25T13:40:00.001+01:00

My blogging is super inconsistent now :( And also very very random, but I promise after my May exams which ends on the 19th May! I'll blog consistently and not rubbish! :):) For now, BEAR WITH ME :):) Loves :D

Screaming, but no one hears

2011-04-20T15:47:00.000+01:00

Who says you can't past the test? Who says you can't be the best?

I'm so annoyed. It's so unfair. I can't believe it. Just feel like screaming. How the hell did I get rejected from a school because of my predicted grades when I already have my actual grades? It doesn't make any sense. I've totally proven myself, but yet not being recognized yet. I feel that I can enter into schools that are not just average that's why I didn't want to apply to schools of other choices. Well, you can say that I'm a beggar not a chooser, but I believe that I'm a chooser.

Past few days haven't been studying as hard as I should, but at least there's 50% productivity there and it's building momentum. :) Hehehe. Started my econs tuition with my ex-teacher (HOD of econs). I have seriously no idea at some stuffs that he taught us, this shows how effective lessons were for the past 2 years in ACS. Going to start writing essays soon, the thing I dread the most :( I'm still procrastinating!! :( Okay, see you :) Bye

I don't believe in fairytales but I believe in you and me.

You made me insecure; Told me I wasn’t good enough

2011-04-16T15:19:00.000+01:00

But who are you to judge

3 weeks till my retakes.. And I have not really started studying, I'm so screwed actually, but I really need the 7s and the 6. Hopefully I do get them! This week has been exhausting and emotional. All is good now, thins has started to settle and hopefully I can start studying next week onwards. My cousins are going back to US/Aussie for their studies/work so there will be less things for me to procrastinate and focus on studying.

Today has been a pretty slack day and also catching up on sleep! Woke up at 11am! What a nice sleep :) Went for facial and ate dinner with my cousins at ion :):) Now just waiting for time to pass and watch soccer with my cousins later :D Hahaha, I swear I need to get myself fit :( My fats are folding :(:(

And yes, you can go ahead and laugh at me because I failed my driving test :( Now I got to put my driving on hold and focus on studying, means I can only get to take my 2nd driving test in JUNE :( That's depressing. Totally felt like killing that tester! But whatever, I've failed :( IMMEDIATE failure. Quite sian, but its over!

This year is not a good year for me! :( Quite annoyed by that but it's okay.. Taking things in my stride! Hopefully things will turn around! Good bye :) I WANT TO WATCH CHUCK, anywhere that I can watch? :(

Who says you're not perfect. Who says you're not worth it.

Random webcams :)

2011-04-15T15:36:00.002+01:00

CUTEEEEEEEEEEEE :):) When I'm overseas, its his responsiblity to take care of my toys! Hehehehe :D:D I'm such a bully :P They're saying hello from Singapore! :D

Toys will be missed when I'm overseas! :):) Aren't they cuteeeeeeee :D:D

Skypey with bf when I'm overseas! Time difference really sucks when your bf wakes up at 2pm everyday :(

Webcam skype with daffy when she's in my aunt's house! Super pretty! Just look at the background! :O Super nice!!!

Just quite random. I saw this super cute angry birds cupcakes online!! AREN'T THEY CUTEEEEEE.. Hahahaha :D:D

"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"

2011-04-12T10:50:00.002+01:00

Time is ticking, and the car just won't move a little faster

When I was on my way to the hospital in a cab, so many things went through in my mind. Initially, I thought I could be emotionless because I am not very close to you. But as I think more and more, the little things that you do touched my life and left an impact on me.

I ran pass the hall way, make my way up and when I entered the room, you lay there silent and still. I was late. Tears just started flowing naturally, I was shocked to see tears, and then I knew how important she was to me. & it is foolish of me not to know when her birthday was, and it falls on the same day as her passing day. Regrets regrets regrets. Regrets of not being there in time, regrets of not buying a cake to wish her a happy birthday, regrets of not learning dialect to communicate, regrets of taking advantage of the food that she made for us because she knew we loved it.

Vivid pictures of her smiles during events that we were together. Those beautiful eyes that always makes me say wow. That smile that never fails to expose those shinny teeth. I miss you and may you rest in peace.

I remember when I was in primary school and we had class party. It was a pot luck party, so everyone had to bring a dish to class, and you willingly volunteered to help us make Chong You Bing. I still remember so clearly in my head at that time were you were making Chong You Bing in our kitchen, using a green bottle to roll out the dough nicely. The amount of strength, effort and time used in making this dish. You even knew that as children, we didn't like vegetables thus you made your own recipe of putting condensed milk to make it sweet instead of spring onions. I tried to make them but I failed miserably to getting the exact same taste as yours.

Your delicious CNY food that I never fail to ask from you every single time before new year. Yellow Sponge Cakes and Tea Eggs. They are the tastiest CNY food I've ever eaten. Maybe that is why I love eggs so much! The yellow sponge cakes are always soft, warm and delicious and the tea eggs never fails to be brown in colour and all the eggs always have the taste and fragrance of the tea leaves. I never fail to eat at least 5 eggs during day 1 of CNY.

And I heard a voice from heaven saying, “Write this: Blessed are the dead who die in the Lord from now on.” “Blessed indeed,” says the Spirit, “that they may rest from their labors, for their deeds follow them!”

Revelations 14:13

With all that said, I love you and miss you greatly. May you rest in peace forever and always.
But it's like you're gone too soon.

I close my eyes and pray.

2011-04-11T04:38:00.000+01:00

Hello world,

I've just flipped open my Chemistry file that has all my notes inside. I still can't swallow the fact that I'm going to start studying for the next one month. Gotta have faith. Gotta have faith. Everyone there is giving me moral support and I'm so thankful for it. :) Shall start the intense nerdy me again. Goodbye. :)

Random photos of me :D

But i know there's sunshine behind that rain

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday

2011-04-09T10:19:00.001+01:00

If you ever lost a light before, this ones for you

Hello! I'm finally home from my 1 month long holiday to Europe :) It was a pretty good holiday and some hiccups along the way, but overall it was great :) Photos are all over facebook! I'll try to upload some photos here when I'm free :):)

Anyway, I'm back to reality again. I don't know what to feel. There's a part of me that is saying "Keep trying, keep pushing, don't give up, don't care about what others say." But also, there's another part of me saying "It's so embarrassing, you're so stupid, you're such a disgrace, hide yourself away." So confusing.

Be positive. Yay to retaking IB in May 2011? Yay to another chance of hitting the big '4'? Yay to wasting more money on stupid things? Yay to getting rejected by all my universities even when I did pretty alright? Yay to gap year? Yay to the uncertain future which I think I'll be studying in a place that I don't want to - Australia/Ireland? Yay to be lagging one year behind the others?

I'm so tired.

Let it out. Let them down.

2011-03-27T00:23:00.000Z

My mind tells me one thing, my heart saying another.
I just want to run away from reality now. The anxiety and the patience slowly killed me as the time passes, and now, the pain can't go away. So from here, what should I do? I've lost all emotions to continue the last 2 weeks of UK trip, I just want to go home so badly now. Crash into my bed, hug my toys and just sleep soundly, hoping all these pain will eventually fade away.

I just want to scream and shout and say how unfair the world is. And again, there's nothing I can do about it. But I know that I've never thought of giving this up, and this is good. But others saying that I'm not putting enough effort just makes me even more upset about it. I just want to sleep away.
Wished you were here to pick me up, not step over me.

It sucks to feel this way

2011-03-14T23:56:00.001Z

Hey all,

Haven't been posting ever since I went overseas. Currently in Manchester now. Everything was going well until I received an email. And yes, I got another rejection. No freaking idea why, but it seems that all the universities that I want to go and see the campus all rejected me - Nottingham and Leeds. Am I being superstitious? It sucks to feel this way.

I'm really annoyed by my decisions on the schools that I applied to. There's so many other better schools I can apply to, but I end up applying to those schools that were average and is very competitive. Well, I guess I'll be either doing a gap year or going to study BSc in Manchester. Sucks to feel this way, spoil my entire trip. And this coming weekend, I'm going to Leeds, and the next week I'm going to Nottingham. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO? SPIT ON THE SCHOOL? NO RIGHT. Oh gosh, emotions spilling.

Anyway, all my photos are uploaded on facebook. Not many photos of me because I was the photographer. Blah, sucks to be the photographer. Maybe I'll just ask people to take photos of me, why should I bother to take photos of others right? URGHS. Super annoyed, just feel like sleeping. Anyway it's 12midnight here, and it's going to be 8am in Singapore. Bye.

Repeatedly saying, can't go anywhere.